Okay, I seriously couldn't help myself. There's just too much journal searching taking place that I had to take a break.
I found this VERY entertaining for more reasons than one.
Firstly, this thing about celebrities endorsing objects or ideas is fascinating to me. Yea okay, what's the point of star power, if you can't use it to inspire people. Everyone looks to celebrities as role models and so companies or organisations take advantage of that by using celebrities to promote their stuff. And the reason people buy all that crap is so that they're just this little bit closer to being just like their hero and thinking that they share the same ideals brings them a sense of coolness.
Right. Okay.
However, I do admire people like Leo DiCaprio and Matt Damon who squeeze all their star power into doing what THEY believe in. It's more of what they do sometimes that make people want to emulate them. Not what they say in a four minute PSA. And if people can't find inspiration in their backyards, then I suppose flashy gossip mags should be alright. The end result is what counts right? Regardless whether people think the reason they're doing something is because of what they themselves believe in, or because it's the 'in' thing.
Anyway, the other main reason this PSA is entertaining is because it's funny! Borat has the stupidest lines, Ryan Reynolds says, "There's more Baldwin brothers than that.", JT states, "I can do anything, I was in a boyband okay.", Harrison Ford gets all shaken up with passion (look at his hands man) and all the celebs get majorly confused. And of course there's Shia. :) Oh and Scarlett is Gorjeeeesssss....
See! It's raining again! And in a few days time, It'll be sweltering hot again. And on that day, I'll have an absolutely annoying headache. I don't mind if it rains and the days that follow are sunny but cold. But if its hot, I get dehydrated easily and I end up falling sick.
The rain looks quite pretty donchathink?
Great. Please tell me why I can't concentrate on studying. Why am I so worried about SO many things? Honours la, holidays la, money la, work la, breathing la. I feel so restless. Everytime I sit at my desk, it feels like I'm holding on tight to a squirming cat destined for bath time.
I want nobody, nobody butchuuu..
Well, by hook or by crook I'll have to get this done. So the princess bids farewell once again. For a few days. :)
Btw, I read some of my old blog posts a few days back. It's quite funny to see how emo and sad I was at the beginning of this year. Seriously 08 DID NOT get off to a good start. But right now I'm alright with where I am. Oh and I miss having Sunny around and the whole 'family'. Yes, they still do make fun of me for referring to these wonderful people as my 'family'.
I feel like I have a hangover. Not that I know what hangovers feel like. But I reckon if I had one, this is what it would feel like. My head feels heavy. I can't really think straight. Hmm. In addition to that, I feel bloated and swollen all over. Relax, this is mere exaggeration. But I do feel like an elephant. For some reason I think the insides of my nose is swollen too.
Anyway. My weekend was the shiznit. I had quality time with Hawa and Firza at Paddington. I bought lip gloss and a dress. Woo Hoo! I had lotsa noice food. And I read some comics at night. And yet, even after 6 hours of walking along Oxford Street and staying up til 2am, I still couldn't sleep.
Yup. That's why.
And then the next day, I had the Mfest agm. I got to read Zek's speech so I got my 15 minutes of fame. Muahahaha. People made fun of me coz Afir and I were wearing matching clothes. You either think it's cute or annoying. We all know what I think. I swear we didn't plan it. Haha. Anyway, I'm finally free of responsibilities!! Yayyyy!! Now I can concentrate on those personal issues I have. Hahaha.
Then I spent the rest of the day with the boyfriend. Hee. Happy. Oh and please watch Eagle Eye. It's just mind blastingly superb. And Shia is so hot.
After that, I dropped by Puan Lin's place for her open house and after gorging on satay, laksa, macaroni and cheesecake (crud, I sound like a pig again), we had a few rounds of KARAOKE. Hurr Hurr. By the time I got home it was 2 and by the time I snuggled under the covers it was 3 something. Thankfully I fell asleep quick. But not before singing this a few times:
Woot Woot. ASSignments have been handed in. Unfortunately, I know if I had the time, patience, concentration and willpower like Fini, I definitely would have handed in better quality work.
Being mediocre is taking its toll on me. Why? Coz I know I'm capable of doing so much more. But laziness had put me on a leash since second year. Right.
Oo-Kay. Let's not dwell too much on that. I propose this next 3 weeks be filled with intense studying interspersed with moments of joy and bliss. Agree?
I celebrated the end of assignments with a new blog! Yeaaayy! The new one is going to be simpler and less wordy. Haha. This one will stick to this format where I rant on and on about whatever I want. I'm a bit hesitant about linking it here. Because like Zek, I don't like it when things go 'mainstream'. Muahahahahaha. And I want to keep this one an esoteric thing between certain people. :)
So now, I'm gonna grab a quick shower and snuggle under the covers with some comics or a movie. Wheee!
ARGH. Stupid bioinformatics assignment. Its pissing the bejeezus out of me.
Must be all the innapropriate distractions the internet has served up on a plate for me.
I shall now proceed to bed while I dream of the 2008 Vendys. Crap. All that street vendor food made me drool. I want to visit the Treat Truck! I wish they had good and cheap mobile desserts where I am right now.
How is it that when the whole world is cranky due to the rain, I'm reveling in the fact that I can stay at home and drink coffee with my blankie wrapped around me?
Crap. Now Im craving Peanut Butter. Shalalala, my oh my.
Kids shuffling in the streets in their brightly coloured skinny jeans?
Kids snapping pictures of each other every few steps with their SLRs?
Kids listening to indie bands because its cool?
Ole! I have to see this with my own eyes dammit. Then laugh at them. OUT LOUD. Before they pelt me with condoms.
It used to be the emo trend. Now its all about indie and Kami and MUH and watever. I'm just glad there aren't any kids sweating it out in black corsets, red hand socks and umbrellas in the middle of sweltering KL. Yea. I find kids who think they're cool annoying. I'm sorry.
Actually. I think good money is generated with these guillible kids eating up all the trends and fads society feeds them. Besides that, bands get to promote themselves through hard core fans who get paid with freebies and a chance to meet the band members. Free publicity bai! Win-Win!
But I guess it's all part of growing up. There's no such thing as being individualistic when you're 14. All you want to do is fit in and identify with a group of people. After all, when you're a kid, your life revolves around your FRIENDS. So hey, go ahead and prance around with your mates. It's entertainment for me. Win-win again!
Yessss...two ASSignments done! Three more to go plus one test this week. And then its down to FINALS. Ba De Ya! :P
Hah! Auli, once you get to uni, this is what your life will look like. Good Luck. I'm almost done. Bllp.
I'm now off to submit the thingy. And go in search of LUNCH. I'm craving rice drenched in gule kuning...sluuuurrrp slurp...n keropok...n tempe...n pergedel. *drools in anticipation*
I just realised that I'm a creature of habits. I almost always order the same thing wherever I eat/drink. It's always the Jasmine Green Tea with Lychee Jelly at Easyway. It's always the Butter Chicken at Uni Fare. It's always iced chocolate at Starbucks. Yea u get the idea.
I can already picture all the eye-rolling that will ensue with this post. But to hell with that. This is MY blog.
If anyone were to ever ask me, how to cope with stress, here's what I'd say:
If things start getting crazy, don't be afraid to run away.
Now, 'running away' in this context is not packing up and leaving things undone. It simply means, dissapearing, recuperating and returning to finish what you started. Just leave all your guilt and expectations and forget about the mania surrounding you.
Trust me when I say, it works wonders.
I'm sure you all have your own versions of running away. Mine always involves 'alone' time. And sometimes in between, I let certain people in. :). It's nice, making conversations with imaginary friends. Reading books in the midst of strangers. Finding inspiration from the words of someone you've never met but wish you could emulate. Watching people watch you.
The less people I know, the better. Why? I don't need a constant reminder of how shitty life is at the moment. That's why I ran away in the first place, remember?
And yes, today I ran away. Right into a boy's arms. Ha Ha. But prior to and after that, was all about ME. And that lovely book Sabrina lent me. I'm glad to say then that, my emotional scales are now rightfully balanced. Thank you to Afir and Sabrina, for making my day. :D
ps: Here's one for the old man --> "...But I want her to grow up knowing that I was the first man ever to fall in love with her. I'd always thought the father/daughter thing was overstated. But I can tell you, it's real. Sometimes, she looks at me and I just become a puddle." - Randy Pausch, The Last Lecture You will always be the number one man in my life, Daddy. :)
I'm having a stupid headache. Must be because the weather can't decide which one it would rather be, hot or cold. Like a bisexual on crack.
So much work to do. But I think imma lie down for awhile.
Bila saya balik, saya nak makan roti canai di Rajoos. Sebab it brings back fond memories. Ala. Sappy la pulak. Okay. Lepas tu saya nak makan Laksa Johor. Tak kisah la sedap ke tak. Asalkan dapat, saya sure happy. Tapi kalau mak Zek yang buat, saya LAGI happy. Muahahaha. Oh. I also want to makan Spaghetti Goreng Kuah Putih kat Williams. Itu pon brings fond memories. Tapi teman Williams sudah tiada. Jangan risau, dia masih hidup. He's just in the land of curries and chapati. Terpaksa la adik temankan. Kalau bukan adik, haa..boyfriend la. Sape lagi? Mau kena terajang kalau klua malam2 sorang2. Banyak je benda lain yang I nak makan. Lots of dem halal meats. MEATS dammit. Oooh.. Nasi ayam Sup Utara. Tapi Shafini tak balik cuti ni..sape nak temankan? (excuse me. dulu slalu je makan sorang2 please. tengkiu.)
Okay. Reading back. I feel so annoyed with myself. Nampaknye sudah gila Shaheera ni. Maybe coz I'm just so pissed off. Weh. Dah seminggu lambat kot. Tak reti2 ke nak drop by and say hello?
Okay, this is gonna be up for 24 hours ONLY. Ciaaaaooooo...
Don't mess with me kid, I've got my own battles to fight.
So there I was, in deep conversation with myself in the bus, when this impertinent kid behind me put something on my head. I reached up and took out the foreign object. Lo and behold! It was a bright orange condom. A fucking CONDOM. Yea sure it matched my hoodie but that is thoroughly unhygienic and bloody annoying. And it looked used. But then again, the brat wasn't old enough to spew out semen anyway so I wasn't so worried.
So what did I do? I placed it onto the seat next to me and got off at the next stop. Never once did I curse out loud. I didn't even turn around to glare at the kid. Why? Because that was what he would have wanted. He would have enjoyed laughing in my red face as I yelled at him. Little weiners like him would have loved to see me reacting in anger at their actions. Its what they feed off, those inconsiderable douchebags. So I just walked off, much to his dissapointment.
However, as cool as I looked on the outside, I was bubbling with rage inside. I was already having a shitty day and what that putz did to me just made me teeter on the edge of sanity. But I managed to pull myself back and proceed with securing my groceries. And now, here I am, filled with bitterness but trying hard to wash it away with Disney songs and my Biofiltration assignment. So yes. Thanks for listening. And please remind me to wash my hair soon.
ps: Sweetie, hope you feel better soon. Happy thoughts! :)
It seems that every little thing is starting to annoy me. Besides the usual people I bitch about (okay, I'm really sorry. I can't help it and please, you guys do it too.), I got all pissed off at Greenpeace activists today.
We were watching a video on GMOs in class today and it was an ethical debate between researchers and environmentalists. Both sides had viable points which were dispensed by scientists, meaning they know what they're talking about. Each side had its merits and was worth considering.
But those Greenpeace activists. My God. Sometimes you wonder why do these people have to be so extreme. Why they plunder and cause massive destruction for the sake of getting attention. All at the expense of those farmers whose crops they ruin.
I mean its okay to want to educate the public about the choices they are making, or to highlight what is really happening with these crops. But to go as far as ruining the crops themselves or to stop field trials from being carried out is just plain ridiculous. How can you determine whether it's safe to consume if you don't do the experiments? The government even banned field tests in Mexico because of pressure from Greenpeace. And here are the farmers living in poverty with not much food source to sustain their lives.
Yea sure developed countries can say, 'We don't need GMOs coz we've got so many other choices already' but what about people in developing countries who can't grow natural crops due to infertile lands and lack of resources? Don't you think they deserve some help in the form of more hardy crops that can give higher yields with added nutrients?
It's not a be all end all situation. I'm sure you can find the middle ground somewhere. But until those barriers are broken and people open up their eyes, nothing can be done.
I used to be all excited about Greenpeace and PETA but now I realise that they're just a bunch of extremists imposing their ideals onto other people. Their main objective is indeed noble, but the means by which they obtain it is much akin to bullying.
Ai yam a ball of emotional thunder. Hear me shriek!
Oh Noooo...emo and pms agaaaiiiinnnn!!!!!
Happy Belated Birthday to the besterest woman in the whole wide world! The sweetest, the most beautiful, the kindest, the smartest. The woman who took care of me when my mom was still in the hospital. The woman who spoiled me, who cared for me and who still loves me as much as she did when she held me in her arms on day 1.
Lotsa love to my Oma. :)
Oh and good luck to my adik for PMR! You can do it sayang! Kakak loves you! :D
ps: Um. Is it weird to feel empty everytime he leaves?
To have an impromptu day at the beach with the sun shining on my skin, lots of laughter and candid shots.
Sand scraping my flip flops. Knots in my salt encrusted hair.
And a bunch of sweet girlfriends smiling and holding hands.
Faezah and Liz, do you think you can brave the 20 hour flight to Sydney for me? Fatin, when will you fulfill your promise to visit me? Liyana, do you think you can forward your flight to tommorrow?
Or maybe I just need some sleep.
Hey GQs, lepas exams lets go holidaying somewhere please?
Reen, Spring is the season for flings because naturally, most animals tend to mate during this season. The increase in temperature induces hormonal changes and they want to ensure that the offspring are born during seasons where food is plentiful.
It's plain old science people. Other acceptable reasons include that the pollen expelled during spring contain chemicals that also increases hormone levels or mimic human pheromones.
Okay that was a lie. But the first theory concerning animals is true. And guess what, You and me baby ain't nothing but Mammals.
1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be? Leave. Why bother sharing?
2. If you have a dream to come true, what will it be? Wait, realistically or what? Does getting mutant powers count?
3.Whose butt would you like to kick? Shredder!
4. What would you do with a billion dollars? Travel the World.
5.Will you fall in love with your best friend? They're both female and taken. Contrary to popular belief, I don't swing that way.
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone? Being loved by someone. It's easier to love someone than to make someone love you.
7.How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love? What's the reason for waiting? Because he has someone else? Because he's confused? I've learnt the hard way that it isn't worth it. I'd rather be happy alone and flirting with other guys than sad and waiting.
8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do? Pout, sulk and move on. Haha.
9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy? Chocolates and cupcakes!
10. What takes you down the fastest? Rude and inconsiderate people.
11. How would you see yourself in ten years time? 32? Stable career with a house to my name. And I've visited at least 6 more countries.
12. Who is currently the most important people to you? Come on. Cliched question please.
13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is? Flirtatious and Fun. ;) And GREAT with kids. :D
14. Have you SMILED today? I smile everyday. Sheera, that's the lamest line you've come up with today.
15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up? Squint and think, 'What? Morning alreaddddyyyy??? Noooooo....Eh lapar la...'
16. Would you give your all in a relationship? Of course. Well, I try at least. Really, I do..
17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick? Nadee just asked me this question. And I'm still keeping it between the 2 of us. ;)
18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done? Yea. Resentment is unhealthy. I'd rather just avoid the person for the rest of my life. Hahaha.
19.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship? I'm used to being single but it's nice having a boyfriend. :)
20. Do you believe in long distance relationships? I didn't use to. But I guess I'd have to start believing in it soon. :(
List 5 people to tag 1. Sabby 2. Izzati 3. Reen 4. Nadee 5. Llama
I believe there's a reenactment of Star Wars in my gastrointestinal tract. I'm not sure which side is winning but at the rate I'm going I'm pretty sure its the Galactic Empire. Pah.
Could it be just plain old malabsorption? Overconsumption of spicy food? Or perhaps its Irritable Bowel Syndrome. There's definitely discomfort and bloating and frequent visits to the toilet. Yet I still feel like I have mild Tenesmus. Apparently it could be due to stress and an unbalanced amount of gut flora. I like that phrase. GUT FLORA. Why isn't it Fauna I wonder..Yup. I think it is IBS.
Crud. I think I need to consume some yoghurt. I need to provide ammunition for the Rebel Alliance!
I feel restless. Somehow, I feel like there should still be open houses and Teh Tarik sessions.
I was the one who wished I had stayed home under the covers reading comics. Yet here I am, listening to Raya songs, hoping Hawa or the girls in unit 39 would invite me over for some bonding. :P
Speaking of Raya songs, I'd just like to reveal that I had NEVER listened to them before I came to Sydney. Seriously. On tv and radio doesn't really count because they're either just snippets or my dad decides to change the channel coz he prefers 'his' songs. Yes. My dad is SO not Malay its not funny. Or maybe it is. Hmm...
I remember the girls laughing at me because I didn't know the words to the Raya songs. But this year, I have come to the point of being obsessed with them, begging the girls of Unit 39 to play them while we prepare for the open house, much to Erin's displeasure. Hahahaha. And now, I've been listening to the same playlist on Imeem for five days straight.
Oh well. At least I'm a bit more culturally inclined now. I can even sing Isabella on karaoke! :P
It's been four days of constant social interactions. Pretty Awesome. But the bed seems to be calling my name. Sigh.
I'm waiting for the day this gets to happen again:
L-R: Doro, Faezah, Fatin, Alin, Liz
No, not the same hairdos and clothes. But to have all five of us there simultaneously. It's always been incomplete since I left for Sydney. I haven't seen Liz for almost TWO FRIGGIN years! And yesterday, those three girls in the middle had an awesome time at Fae's house eating her mom's cooking. Pah! They even sent me smses to make me jealous. You guys SUCK! Hahaha. But I loves yous! :D
Selamat Hari Raya! Today was just awesome. I thought it would be pretty lonely this time around but everything worked out SO well. Thanks to all my friends especially the sweetheart in Macquarie. :D
I played the Takbir Raya on Imeem just to psych myself up for Solat Raya this morning. I had good quality family time at Unit 39 after that. I had a nice loooong chat with everyone in Oma's house as I waited for the bus (it was so great to talk to everyone. I love you guys LOADS!). I spent time at the boyfriend's open house. :D. I watched in pure amusement as SIX cars came all the way from Kingsford berkonvoi. Plus the few of us who went by bus. I went off to UniLodge for ANOTHER open house. And now, I'm all beat, writing this while I wait for my hair to dry.
You have no idea how happy I am, considering how sucky I've been feeling this past week.
More Open Houses to come! Wheeee! :D
Oh and did I mention I got Nastar from Vanna? My god, I was only joking but the sweet girl really made me some. :) And I also had a blast at the Last Iftar and Takbir Raya last night. It truly felt like we all had 'Balik Kampung'. Hehehe..
Minta Ampun For All My wrongdoings okay? Slamat Lebaran again!
ps: Okay. Dgr takbir balik sebak. Pastu Zek kasi mesej sedih. And then I had this HUGE swell of affection for everyone I love. Sigh.
A dash of Disney, a sprinkle of pop punk, lashings of sweet treats, a pinch of superheroes, bundles of laughter and a tinge of crankyness.
All wrapped up in a pretty package that resembles the Cookie Monster.
Also self proclaimed Princess of Le Cupcake Kingdom
People I love. Music. Sweet treats. Singing animals. Movies. Princes. Books. Fables. Hindustan Heroes.
Sinks my Ship
Rude people working in hospitality and sales. Long queues. Idiots CUTTING long queues. People who Patronise.
Wishlist
To finally figure out what I'm meant to do. To travel the world. To eat anything without gaining ungodly amounts of weight. To get my happily ever after. :)
Happy Birthday Hui Chien!! I <3 u!
L-R: Doro, Faezah, Fatin, Alin, Liz
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