Hamburger Steak
Har Har. The money is in and I'm going shopping. :P
My housemates plus Amy are in the process of setting me up with someone. My god. This never ends. First my mom, then Syaz, now my housemates. Grr.
I have dark circles and eyebags under my eyes. Whoopeedoo. I think I've been having intensive 'studying' for about a week now. But somehow I still managed to sneak in plenty of bonding time with different people. :)
Imma have me some nice desserts on Friday. Care to join me? :D
Labels: Food, Housemates, Uni
This is the aftermath of afternoons in the cloverfield.
2 down, 2 to go. Goddamit.Have you heard of the iCondom? Sounds interesting, no?'This is one of those issues that George Clooney always avoids — saying one thing, but doing another. Clooney has time and time again admitted that he does not preach green as much as others, simply because he knows he isn’t the most environmentally responsible person out there.'- Ecorrazi -- On being hypocritical -Yes, I'm no tree hugging hippie and I'm not a vegetarian. I may seem that way and I'm very interested in saving the environment but seriously, I still take 15 mins in the shower and I leave my computer on sometimes when I go out for an hour. I also tolerate watching lab rats being experimental models. Rabbits not so. So way to go George Clooney, I'm on your side of the court.At this rate, I don't even know if I can do honours. I really hope I can but it's such an uphill battle. I've got so many responsibilities that I'm starting to think that I'm not cut out for any of this. Or maybe I'm just too lazy and selfish. Or incompetent. Take your pick. Labels: Eco Friendly, Random, Uni
O-pa! Gimme my Spanakopita! -Oh i believe it happens all the time_
Okay, my stress levels are mounting. Why do I have an inkling that I can't do this? Why do I feel like I'm screwing up everything? Sigh. Incomprehensible lecturers bug the life out of me.
I just want a holiday. Where I dont have to think about primer designs or T cell receptors. I just want some kataifi and some borek. I want to sleep in. I want to watch movies. I want to buy new clothes. I want to have dinner in London with bangau angau and kuda kepang.
So many wants distract you from your needs.
I feel bad about bitching. I still don't understand why humans do it. What do you actually get out of talking about other people's faults? I know I feel some sick sort of satisfaction. Like a smugness creeping up at seeing other people sharing your dislike. And refracting people's criticism of you towards someone else. I feel guilty afterwards. Sure these people did some bad things but to prolong the discussion seems a tad bit depressing. Sigh. I'm sorry. I know you bitch about me too. Frankly, as long as it doesn't get back to me, I don't really care because it happens and I can't stop it anyway.
Travis Clark, please keep tossing rocks at my window.
Labels: Emo, Friends, pop punk/powerpop, Rambling, Uni
We're riding to Utopia; road map says we'll be arriving soon
It brings me comfort listening to The Eagles as I plot my graphs. However, there's this one song that makes the hair on my neck stand. I'm guessing they were going for the same effect as Hotel California but somehow, I find this one creepier.
It reminded me of Sandman and Y the Last Man. Of being lost in the desert. Of unspoken fear. Of hypocrisy and greed. Of people fighting wars and facing their demons in the middle of the night. *shudders*
Comics make me have an overactive imagination.
But do check out Long Road Out of Eden if you have a chance.
On a lighter note, the evening gave way to a hint of blue up in the heavens. The sun peeked through and the couples decided it was nice enough outside to make out.
Annoying. Why? Coz I don't know where to look. I mean, come on, if I were to look their way I'd get told off, or worse, other people would think I'm 'jakun' or a pervert. But I'm not! Really! I'm so uncool, I know. At least I finally got some Serotonin in me. Wheee!
Labels: Geekery, Rambling, Random
No meeting today! :D
Saturday catchups are great. Conversations over coffee are even better. Talking about life is so overrated but we love doing it anyway. Thanks to the Newtown boys. And Erin. :D I wouldn't realise how much I've accomplished and how many people observe my achievements until I have people tell them to me.
Erin and I were discussing about being the eldest in the family. How sometimes we feel as if we're the experiment and how our parents learn about raising kids through their mistakes with us. And how they raise our younger siblings differently. I'm sure they can't help it, and one day, we'd do the same.
What we don't get however, is why our younger siblings/cousins, always think that everything is so easy for us. They don't really understand, carrying this burden of constantly having to show a good example, of having to make the family proud, is not an easy task. I know they get compared to us ever so often, like Kakak gets to fly overseas, Kakak has so many responsibilities, Kakak is this and that, and I understand they feel frustrated with this. But honestly, it's not an easy task. We're all struggling here. I don't think they understand that having three assignments all due in one week, filling your weekends with meetings, while having to cook every night and do housework on most days is not an easy task. I mean we have the upper hand of experience and maturity but my dears, the reason why Kakak wants to be spoiled when she's back home is that she has to do everything herself here. You kids get everything served on a platter in front of you every day.
And Erin was saying, that every time she's doing assignments or tests, she's so afraid she'd fail because she's so worried that she'll disappoint everyone. I feel the same way. It's not just about letting ourselves down, it's about letting everyone else down. Our families, our juniors, our student officers, the Malaysian community here (I exaggerate). But especially our parents and our Adiks. The unspoken pressure is enormous. The adiks think that we don't get pressured to do our best, but trust me little ones, we do and its just as hard on us as it is on you. :)
Labels: Family, Friends, Rambling
April showers and May flowers
There's a huge boom in environmentally friendly houses nowadays especially since Brad Pitt has been endorsing them. Even Richard Gere is planning on building an Inn that uses recycled beams and geothermal systems. Even if you don't get to buy these eco houses, you still have an option of purchasing solar panels to help reduce your carbon impact on the environment.I was wondering, in Malaysia, if one were to go for sustainable houses, would old kampung houses do the trick? I mean, no fancy heating systems, no hi tech gadgets, no carbon emissions. But then, we'd have to use a whole lot of wood, so I guess that's not good. Considering Malaysia gets constant sunshine and cold to us is 27 degrees Celcius, we could actually take full advantage of solar energy. I think the one drawback of the heat is the excessive use of air conditioning in homes. I admit sometimes its just TOO hot not to turn it on but I feel absolutely guilty inside when I do. Maybe we should just start building clay huts like in Africa to stop the heat from penetrating our homes. (That was a joke).What I don't get from these Environmentalists is that they love shooting down people who don't have the same values as them. Like people who are not vegetarians. Like dude, boleh relax tak, let them eat what they want. Noone's complaining you're dismissing God's gifts to mankind. There's a difference between dissing people who clearly disrupt the environment like dumping toxic waste into rivers and such, but it's something else to criticise people on not seeing eye to eye with you on minor issues like preferring to obtain their protein from Cows than tofu or not buying clothes made from Hemp or recycled soda bottles. Labels: Eco Friendly, Geekery
There's a story at the bottom of this bottle and I'm the pen
I've been thinking about this for awhile. You know how some people have huge ambitions, like being CEO of a big company one day, or traveling all over the world, or discovering a cure for cancer. They say to themselves and other people 'One Day, That'll Be Me.' Some people are SO sure that their future lies among fame and glory and wealth.
I know it isn't what people expect of me, or what my family wants of me, but to me, I don't want to chase the big things. I would love to make a difference in the world but having these high positions is just too far and too hard to fathom. I don't think I have it in me. For now at least.
Maybe if I work slowly, at my own snail pace, I'd get there eventually. But to have to actually go into the working world with a goal as lofty as the top of the pyramid, all it's going to do is phase me and make my heart aflutter. No, I'm starting small. I'm going to enjoy being a minion, graduating slowly up the ladder rungs until I finally deserve being there. And since working hard isn't one of my natural traits, its going to take longer than usual. :P
Yes, I'm aware I'm disappointing some of you, but this is my choice. I don't think I'm capable of sweating bullets and making huge leaps and impressing people in the real world. Maybe I'm not sure what graduating in Biotech will lead to. Maybe I'd rather travel in search of cupcakes and write about them on alternate days. Maybe I'd rather build my own magazine empire with a bunch of people while being a soccer mom. Maybe I just want to collect samples for my boss in Costa Rica.
I am now thinking of Ethan and Kenji. God. That was 6 years ago! *embarased*
They're fictional by the way.
Labels: Rambling
Rain is falling down on the sidewalk...Lace up your shoes, here's how we do.
I am semi proud of myself. Wait. That's a stupid phrase to coin. Anyway. I've been trying my very best to be happier these past few days. And its been working quite well. In public. Which is the point actually, being able to laugh and string conversations well when in the company of your friends. As opposed to just laughing at their jokes and keeping quiet when its your turn. And I've been back to being hyper. Ngeh Ngeh. I think it helps being high on chocolates and bubble tea. And also not thinking about how all my friends are taken and I'm not. Or of certain boys. Because a few weeks ago, I've decided to finally wash my hands of you. I know what I want and need, and it certainly isn't you. Thanks anyway.
Another thing I'm proud of is cooking myself and eating veges and/or fruits everyday. I may not make the best meals for group consumption, (Some find having oats with tuna very weird) but for me, this is great. I'm hoping to keep taking care of myself. I'm not going to keep falling sick. :D
Now, what I'm not proud of is my studies. Yea, I'm sure you were all expecting this. But yea, the only way I'll start being good at it is to force myself to focus. It's all up to me. I've been so spent this weekend with the club events and meetings that I'm still too tired today. But tonight! Will be the start of this week's HELL! So people, I'll see you on the weekend kay? Toodles!
ps: I had a carrot cupcake with cream cheese frosting this morning from The Cupcake Bakery on George Street. Oh dear, it was so lusciously moist! Taste wise it was ok but the fact that it was moist! Gosh. Ok class!
Labels: Boys, Emo, Food, Rambling
The wind is low, the birds will sing that you are part of everything
I'm panicking. For no reason. Or reasons that are trivial. Flight tickets, credit cards, money, assignments, my studies which are crap, money, meetings, more meetings. Sigh. Mommy, can I cry please?
Okay I need to calm down. Hm. I need iced chocolate. And a hug. And those flight tickets.
Edit: I got my Iced Chocolate. I hung with Sab. Thanks babe, your company made me feel loads better. *hugz* Oh and Nadee tagged me. Pah.
Write 10 random things about the people u know. It must be something they never told u directly, and u knew it either by guessing, eavesdropping, or through observations.When u're done, tag other ppl as usual.
1. My housemate is a kepoh grandma. And she knows a lot of housewife tricks especially when it comes to cooking.
2. My girl friend likes to dip her toes in infidelity.
3. My classmate is probably gay.
4. My cousin is seeing her ex boyfriend again.
5. My guy friend checks out his close friend's ass when she's not looking.
6. My former housemate used to be a pushover and might still be one now.
7. My former crush enjoys being depressed and pessimistic about love and doesn't want to move on.
8. My ex schoolmate has no real friends. All she has are her string of boyfriends and flings.
9. My ex boyfriend is lonely and too picky, which explains a lot.
10. My close friend is in denial about liking a guy she keeps arguing/have healthy discussions with.
I'm gonna tag Erin, Sab, Liyana, Shal and Arif. Yea well. I couldn't care less if you do it. And in other blogs, they actually mention the names. I'm too lazy to do so.
Labels: Emo, Friends, Random
But you can learn how to play the game, It's easy.
As I sit in the lecture theater trying to understand what Jeff is rambling on about, my stomach starts making rumbling noises. I turn to Vanna and ask her if she heard it. She nodded with a grin. Crap.It's not because I'm hungry. No. I've had coffee and bread this morning.You see, a growling stomach, or borborygmi, doesn't only happen when one is hungry. It happens all the time due to the air and fluid moving along in your Gastrointestinal tract by peristalsis. It gets even louder when your stomach is empty because there isn't anything to absorb the sound, or when you're sitting in certain positions because of the accumulation and pressure of the gas and fluid. Now, when the rumbling gets TOO loud, you might have to check with the doctor because this might be a sign of parasites. Yes, you heard me, big, fugly WORMS. Or perhaps food allergies. Or lack of digestive friendly bacteria. And if you don't hear it at all, don't think you're lucky, it's just because your digestive system has gone on hiatus and is still paralysed. This though, usually takes place after surgery. And it isn't good, why? Think about it, if you can't move your bowels, how can your body get rid of all that shit? Trust me, I've experienced it first hand. Anyway, I think I'm hungry for real now. It's been about 5 hours since my last meal. It still amazes me how I can talk about bowels and still have an appetite. Oh, and I find the scientific term for farting: flatus very amusing. :D Labels: Science Geekery
Coz who wants to be right as rain, It's better when something is wrong
Hel-lo? I am so pissed off with myself for studying the wrong lecture for my quiz 2mrw. I wasted my time. And now, I'm gonna have to wake up at 7 to study. Pah.
There's this girl in my class who just got thinner this year. She also wears cuter clothes now, like skirts and pretty hoodies. And she's started wearing contacts. You wanna know why? Coz she just got a BOYFRIEND. Okay, so I assume that's the cause because last year, she was pretty normal. Ha Ha. Man, the lengths girls go through to impress a boy.
It's been raining. I like how crisp the air feels after it rains in the morning. Makes listening to Adele a much more enhanced experience. Ha Ha. Oh man, I need to download We Shot The Moon soon. I need to feel that pure happiness radiating through my soul. They remind me of beaches and huge laughs with my friends. Oh and sunshine. Lots of sunshine.
Okay, off to digest some more facts about antigens. Pfft.
Come on, bring me the James Marsdens of the world. You know, the guys who are always second best. (And yummy) I'll put you out of your misery.
Labels: Rambling, Uni
When both boy and girl start suddenly shaking inside
It's a SATURDAY!
I've had a stressful week. I had to catch up with everything considering I've been on holidays for 2 weeks. Well, it IS MY fault I didn't start revision and assignments earlier. Oh well, no use crying over spilled Slurpee *coughMELcough*. And guess what, I'm getting sick again. Hooray for Shaheera's immune system *clapclap*. Hel-lo lymphocytes and macrophages? Wake up! Wat the hell are memory cells for when you don't use them???? Okay, sorraaayyhhh. (I miss Peanut and Auliyana).
I wonder why I always start or end my posts with complaints. I guess I'm generally a whiner. I can hear my mom laughing and nodding at this. Okay, so let's look on the bright side for this week.
The feeling of accomplishment when you finish your checklist.
The joy of eating muffins straight out of the oven.
Catching up with sweethearts after a week of absence.
Meeting new people and feeling more confident with your ability to talk to strangers.
Saving money by not eating out and cooking at home.
Listening to We The Kings over and over again. And sleeping to The Eagles.
Okay, so that's all quite arbitrary. But all is good. The Sydney year didn't start as well as I hoped it would but now, the clouds are clearing and the sun is coming out. And so is the chilly wind.
So today, I'm kicking up my feet and enjoying good old fashion catch ups with my sweetpeas. Watch a movie maybe, and read a few chapters from a book. Or comics! And perhaps, I will have a culinary treat. If I have the money. And more We The Kings please.
Enjoy your weekend people. And don't forget to SMILE! :D
Labels: Rambling
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