Now I've got to Fool Myself
Today's rainfall marked the seasonal change we've been waiting for. Well, I don't know if YOU'VE been waiting for it. I'm sure with extreme heat waves in Summer, wet days are more than welcome now. And I kind of like sitting at my desk and listening to the rain while drinking something hot.
Now the only problem is that I dont have an umbrella.
I have a presentation tomorrow. I have a mid session quiz next week. I haven't really started my experiment yet.
And here I am listening to the Kids Incorporated take on "The King of Wishful Thinking" on replay. I think I'm going to sing that the next time I karaoke. Huh huh huh.
Oh wow. It must really be something to stare at this blog and feel unsatisfied with everything I've written. Mrrfhh.
Labels: Geekery, Random, Uni
Don't Trust A Ho
Funny how watching a cute guy can make you chipper for the rest of the day. Thanks Hawa for sharing your new Youtube obsession! :D
You know what I love? Friendships that aren't one sided. I'm so sorry to those who think they've been shortchanged by me but I have to say that I'm very lucky to have some pretty awesome friends. I love listening to your problems as much as I am grateful that you listen to mine. I love it when you come by my room even when it's messy because I always drop by at yours. I love it when you share random stuff with me and accept all the nonsense I make you read and watch.
And I miss my little sanggana cham cham. Everytime I watch Russel Peters I think of you, kid. Take it, and GO.
I now type psycho as spycho and am dancing crazily to 3Oh!3. Word.
Labels: Family, Friends, Random
Head in the Clouds
Everytime I watch sappy movies, I get this sense of yearning and longing for many things. I used to be able to express them as freely as I wanted to. I complained to my friends, I wrote detailed essays on them in this blog, and I note them down in scraps of paper at random intervals.
But I can't anymore. I don't dare to. Why? Because I notice that every time I do, weird things start happening to me. (Oh shut up and quit humming the X Files theme). Think of it as an answer to my 'prayers'. Just not the answers I wanted or what I was looking for. They may be other people's answers, just not mine.
I'm not sure if it's too cryptic for you but it's a bit hard for me to explain while keeping it under wraps. I so want to share with the world what I want, what I miss, what I long for. I am only a young human lady after all. But I know someone might just come up and say 'here, you wanted this right?' and it totally knocks the wind out of me because they've taken it out of context. And I end up filling myself up with guilt and plenty of 'No's.
Okay, pardon me if it's all gibberish to you.
I think I'll go detox onto my notebook.
Labels: Emo, Rambling
Buddy
Okay I'm sorry. I took the earlier post down because I felt so guilty after my mom called me.
My cousin, Khalil passed away this morning due to an asthma attack. He wasn't even 30 yet. His family is of course devastated.
My mom told me how heart wrenching it was to watch his mom cry over his dead body and how even my dad who NEVER cries, eventually did. It was also sweet to hear that all my mom's siblings came down/up to Solat Jenazah.
It just sends chills up my spine to know that he's just a few years older than me and it seems that more people from my demographic are dying due to diseases everyday. So please, take care of yourselves ok?
Al-Fathihah.
Labels: Family
I Love Salt and Pepper Squid
Just had an extremely gratifying weekend. There's too much to say and too many emotions and thoughts running through my head so I'll summarise. Hoho.
Hawa's Partay! My head almost burst due to the sheer awesomeness of it all. You can tell from the pictures. Haha.
Sunday was a Relaxing Day filled with lepaking moments, good food and even greater company. And of course, GORGEOUS views. Until now, it's so surreal to me that I'm in Sydney and I am absolutely thankful God has given me the chance to be here now.
On a personal note, I know why guys get bored of me and I know that you shouldn't be ashamed of your cellulite or even the way you dress. Who friggin cares anyway? I would love to travel by myself but I know why it isn't safe. Sometimes we think too much about certain rules and expectations that we forget that we should just go with the flow and have faith in things.
Labels: Friends, Holidays, Rambling
It's Time to Make your Move
Lately, there has been a small movement circulating among some of the blogs I read. They've joined this campaign called 'No H8' that's keen on seeing Prop 8 abolished. Of course we all know that celebrity feuled protests are the ones that always gain the most attention and like it or not, this issue is going to stick around much longer than expected.Now, please be reminded that what I say here is just MY own opinion so please do not preach to me and call me blasphemous or whatever. Stop being so shallow.Anyway, when it comes to same sex relationships, I know in my deepest core that it is wrong based on religion. We've all read our holy books and none of them actually condone these relationships. What I find most irritating is people who embrace these feelings because of pure lust and experimentation and not because it's what their heart tells them to do.However, there are some out there who truly can't help what they feel. They've tried so hard to disprove their feelings and yet, they still fall for the same gender, no matter how much counselling or praying they've gone through. And who are we to argue with people who are in love? Those who find stability, happiness and security with someone who is absolutely perfect for them? How many of us can say that we're experiencing the same sort of contentment they are?We should also remember that the possibilties of the types of human beings that God creates is endless. I'm sure there are reasons for these people to exist and whatever they feel and do, what the final outcome will be once life is over, is purely between them and God. I don't think we have the right to judge them or hate them even.So there you go. My two cents worth. And no, I am not gay, don't worry dear Parentals. Labels: Rambling
French Toast :D
Today was a FULL day. :D And thus, a POSITIVE one.
4 hours of commercial biotech classes and almost 2 hours of lab work. I do realise that normal full days involve 9 hours. But come on people, you know you spend a quarter of it online or eating.
Anyway, it's kind of nice gaining proper momentum. Waking up early, eating (somewhat) proper food, no naps, lab work, classes, relaxing time after dinner. Hoho. I hope I get to keep the ball rolling. Wish me luck!! I've still got a couple of kinks I need to iron out. Such as vegies for lunch and time for exercise. Oh and proper study time. :B
One thing I'm aiming for this year:
To have an adventure every week.
It's very subjective. Eating cow's brain is also an adventure. So is painting my toes electric blue. So yeah. Any suggestions or collaborations are duly welcomed! :D
Labels: Rambling, Random
Where's Your Picket Fence, Love?
Shaheera has clearly messed up her priorities. Please be patient while she reboots and changes to default settings. Sorry for the inconvenience caused. Thank you.
Hoho remind me to consume fiber everyday. And wake up early. And have proper meals. And exercise. And drink lotsa water. Constipation and high cholesterol is unfun.
And of course please make me STUDY.
Alaa buat sendiri la bodoh.
Labels: Emo
Business as Usual
Yarr. It's Handsome Man's Birthday today.
Happy Birthday Daddy! Welcome to the big 5-0! Muahahaha....
Love you lots and lots! :D
And to commemorate this day, I'll be listening to The Eagles on replay. Woo Hoo!
Labels: Family
Over and Over I've Dreamed of this Night
My mom asked me last night, "How come your blog ni, one day so chirpy and then next day so encouraging and then suddenly so dark?"I replied, "Mummy, hidup ini bagaikan roda. Kadang2 kat atas, kadang2 kat bawah." At which point I burst out laughing. That ayat was stolen from Fini because she loves reciting it in the weirdest of contexts.This IS a personal blog. If Dirah wears her heart on her sleeve, I wear mine on my blog. (lame).Anyway, Omigod, I just saw some pictures from the Taste of Sydney festival. I would really love to go to these sort of events because I think it would be an awesome culinary experience. Sydney's food culture is something I'd thoroughly miss when I'm back home. (Although we DO have our own fabulous food culture). However, being a Muslim, it's a bit hard to indulge in all the samples because they're obviously NOT halal. I'm pretty sure I can get away with sampling some of the desserts and vegetarian or seafood stuff but come on! It would be SUCH a waste to not try the Wagyu Beef Bourguignonne’ with Truffled Cauliflower and Onion Rings or the Loin and Crumbed Belly of Lamb with Basil Mayonnaise and a tomato olive jus. It's okay if these events had free entry so I wouldn't feel so shortchanged but they don't. Or do they? Hmm...But you know what? I think I'll just try going to the Good Food & Wine Show somewhere later this year. I know I'll never get that chance once I'm back in the Motherland. I should add it to MY bucket list. Who wants to join me? (I can hear Sab volunteering enthusiastically from here). And I shall quell the perceptions of not being able to enjoy the food/exhibitions just because I can't have meat/pork/alcohol.Crud. Now I'm getting all excited way ahead of schedule. Hee Hee.Oh and to those who are concerned, my appetite has returned. Probably due to the onset of my pre-period routine. And also the fact that my friends cook wonderful meals. :D Labels: Emo, Family, Food, Friends
You Wear and Fade You're Nowhere Fast
It's so hard to juggle between taking care of your food intake while you take care of your finances while taking care of your studies while u take care of your broken heart.
I have only managed to work on my finances and my heart. Even then, it's not looking pretty optimistic with 820 dollars to pay on a 5 week month. Sigh.
And now, i like to admire my new found hip bones and play with my ribs. woo hoooooo!
I also enjoy staring vacantly at those toilet seats and choosing which one to wipe down.
I also love the fact that this house has no detergent or toilet bowl wash.
And who could forget those cockroaches colonising the bottom of my printer and spreading their filth around my room.
Wow. I LOVE Sydney. Don't you love it too?
I woke up with this resonating heartache. Not literally of course. Don't ask me why. I can't explain it to you if I tried. It's just one of those days you know?
ps: Penat la asyik nak paksa diri jadi happy je kan?
Labels: Emo, Family, Food, Friends
A Letter to You
Dear friends,
Please remember that no matter what happens, I'm here for you to lean on, to talk to, to offer any sort of comfort and to support you in any way possible.
I know that it's easier to soak in pity and wallow in regret but honey, please, life is too short for that. Remember all the good things you have. Your loves, passions, gifts. Even if you've had something taken from you, there are other things that can fill the void.
I'm not saying you can't weep. Please do. But don't dwell on the miseries of the past or the bleakness of the future. Look outside, appreciate the fact that you're still breathing, that your mother loves you and that you can take 3 flights of stairs without dying.
If you need me you know how to get me. Call, text, email or message. I'll try my best to make you smile. We can discuss your problems or we can sing together. We can badmouth the culprit or we can pretend we're (sexy) pirates.
When you're so low, there's no where else to go but UP! :D
So here's a little something to my sweethearts everywhere. Please, don't think you don't deserve it coz you've broken my heart or you haven't said hi in months. You do.
*HUUUUUUGGGSSSS*
I have major love (salutes) for all of you. Please take care. :)
Love,
Sheera
Labels: Friends
Hi, can I have one McGangBang Please?
I had a sleep in today and now my head feels like lead. Well, I'm sorry, this week has been hectic and I never got the chance to rid my jet lag or get fully settled in the routine of things here.Watched Watchmen last night. Probably another reason why my head feels like lead. I never got round to finishing the comic because of the massive theories they imparted and it was too deep for my liking. The movie was pretty good nonetheless. The fight scenes especially the ones involving Rorschach are just badass. You can read a fanboy's review right HERE. And if you're not into that kind of thing, here's something for all you foodies out there:The History of the McGangBang.It's come to a point where the staff at Maccas don't even flinch when they take your order. There are a few variants too, like using Spicy McDeluxe instead of a McChicken. And of course, you can add on as many patties as you like to create your own McOrgy. (hahahahaha).Not into that either?“I believe in pink, I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles.” -Audrey Hepburn-(I believe in miracles...where you from? You sexy thing.....)So stop whining and be happy! Labels: Food, Geekery, Movies, Random
Pedro and Jose
Sometimes, when I'm alone in my room, I talk to my donkeys Pedro and Jose. Here, Pedro is telling me a sad story about a monk who fell in love with the kitchen hand. You can see that Jose is very sad about this because he once fell in love with a mermaid.
Socks are from Pull&Bear. :D
ps: I think Garuda is upset with me because I chose to imagine someone else to converse with before I fall asleep. :S In logical terms, it's not doing my soul any good to keep meandering in past memories.
Labels: Random
Look at this Stuff, Isn't it Neat?
I'm in a fit of giggles now because I found this site which has pictures of the male Disney characters in their undies. What? I'm 22! I CAN see these sort of things!!! So hot okay! My top picks would be Aladdin (jambu), Prince Eric (oh god) and Prince Philip (cute tush). Please don't open it at work or in public (especially if you're a straight male).My favourite Love Song is A Whole New World. I think I'm gonna lobby for it to be played at my wedding. I wonder if I get to pick the songs that are meant to be played throughout the event. If I do, I hope noone intervenes. :BOh, and I really want to spend my honeymoon at Disneyland. I'm really hoping my husband would let me. Pleeeaaaassseeeeee. Oh shit, unless of course I get married when I'm 45 or something. I'm sorry, not everyone envisions romantic settings. The reason I picked Disneyland is because it makes me BEYOND happy and I only want to share that with certain people. And if he can tolerate me when I'm there, he must be some kind of special.Okay, back to those steaming photos. I mean, yea, I need to start on those science journals. :S Labels: Geekery, Rambling
Woah! Watch Where You Aim!
Ho Ho dah start emo dah. Sebab tengok titisan2 berwarna kuning dia atas bibir mangkuk tandas. Benci nak mati. Skarang SEMUA penghuni rumah ini (kecuali saya la) suka kencing sepah walaupun semuanya perempuan.
Lepas tu bilik ni ada la gambar2 yang kurang menarik di setiap sudutnya. Nak bawak turun malas dan sayang. Okla takpe, bila dah cukup kuat, bawak la turun. Namun begitu, dah online ni, tertengok pula gambar2 orang lain tengah dilamun cinta. Pandai. Nasib baik tak nangis. Atau guna marker hitam kaler-kaler gambar2 dalam bilik ni. Jangan risau, saya masih siuman.
Banyak lagi keluhan yang boleh saya keluarkan. Tetapi bahasa melayu saya ni memang sampah dan malam hendak mengucapkan selamat tinggal.
WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT? 'mengucapkan selamat tinggal'????!!
Anyway, I'll remove this when I see fit. Now, bask in the grossness of my unit's toilet. Peace.
Labels: Emo, Housemates, Random
My HP is Bust
I'm now back in Sydney. The house seems SO unfamiliar to me. My toiletries are strewn around in the shower cubicle. My room doesn't smell like me. I have no food in the kitchen. Noone is going to pop her head into my room and scream "SHEE!!!".
Greeeeaaattttt.
This morning, I survived with 2 hours of sleep, Russell Peters, and Katy Perry's Hot & Cold. I got all pumped up about meeting my friends and starting uni. I had a short catchup with Sindy and she bought me lunch. (THANKS! :D) Then I collapsed on the bed for 6 hours. When I woke up, I didn't want to eat alone so I went over to Unit 39 and hung out wit May n Erin. Kak Mira was there too. We ate Erin's Milo Muffins. :D Then Fini, Jaih and Anept joined us. That was fun. Haha.
And now, I'm back home, not sleepy and trying very hard not to feel homesick. I'm already feeling the pressure of studying and working. But I have to remind myself, I can't keep following other people's plans. Life is more than just what you see on the surface.
Anyway, Llama, I still think Princess Jasmine is THE best! Her sass just outshines the other girls. Hmm..Princess Aurora is not bad too. :D Belle is just too...ayu and lembut for me..And Llama, rest assured that I miss you too. You're always there giving me constant support and you always think I'm so much more special than I realise. Thanks sweets. I hope you're alright in NZ too. And remember, I'm always here to listen to you and give you all the support you need too. :)
Crap. I don't feel anything. Just a vague hunger. But I've got the orientation tomorrow. Sigh. Okay, before I bore you further, I shall mintak diri dulu. Nite!
Labels: Housemates, Rambling
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