3rd stop - Prince of Wales Hospital

WTF???

A plastic tube (it looks more like a humungous needle to me) in my vein and the absence of my appendics is not a good start to the long awaited break.

But plenty of gifts, flowers, sweet messages and visits from wonderful friends is.

THANKS SO MUCH YOU GUYS. You seriously make my world a better place to live in. I never knew I had this many friends here in Sydney. Thanks for all your support and prayers. I dont know how i will EVER repay you. Especially Preeveen n May who stayed up wit me in the emergency ward til 7 am. And my other gediks who came several times. And of course those who payed me a hospital visit till d nurse got pissed. And everyone else. I LOVE YOU GUYS VERY VERY MUCH.

Alhamdulillah Im okay.

*Hugs and Kisses*

Labels: Emo, Friends, Holidays

Finally. The long awaited break that doesn't have me freezing at bus stops.

1st stop - Karaoke!
2nd stop - BBQ at Coogee!

Spring Break here I come!!!!!!!! Woo Hooooo!

Enjoy d hols peeps. B4 exams suck the life n optimism out of u. :P

Labels: Holidays

I’m on a high. You know when people say that ‘with the good comes the bad, the bad comes the good’? Well actually I’m just bullshitting coz its from a song I think and I don’t really understand what it means at this hour when my blood glucose level is slightly off its marker. Phew. That was a mouthful. Like I said, I’m high.

The point of this post is: I’ve realized that no matter how crap you feel, or how messed up your day/week/month has been, it will ALWAYS subside and lead you to better and happier moments that will probably mean more than any number of emo days combined. Just like how happiness can never be perpetual, we will never be depressed forever. It’s like a wheel that turns constantly. I know it’s a cliché, but it’s also a fact.

I have to keep reminding myself this whenever I have one of those PMS moodswings or whenever berating myself becomes an hourly habit. I also have other people to remind me of this. The wonderful people who form my weirdly dysfunctional family here in Sydney. A session with my friends beats any sort of therapy. Not that I’ve actually been to therapy. Anyway. Nothing cures the blues and shows you how great life can be than spending time with the people you love, howling with laughter at jokes only you understand, making fun at everything else, pushing all your problems aside. After awhile, you forget what was bugging you the week before and you see now that this whole meeting with you and your loved ones is worth way more than stressing out about matters that are not as important. :D

So there you go. Goodbye bitterness and anger. Welcome back sunshine and laughter. For now at least. I heart my friends. All of them, all over the world. Thank you for making my life worthwhile. *HUGZ*

Labels: Emo, Friends, Rambling

Its sunny and bright again!

I saw people walk by draped in towels and wearing their bikinis and board shorts. It IS a nice day for some fun in the sun. Its bright but not sweltering hot. A bit windy but the heat from the sun rays compensate for that.

Alhamdulillah.

I think I'll read a book and have ice cream on my balcony and hope i get a glimpse of the boy next door. :D.

Labels: Boys, Rambling

Dear Lady Spring,

When will you be gracing us with your presence my fair lady? I have seen you poking your head around the corner. Teasing us with your laughter that tinkles in the wind. Your scent just barely wafting through the rain, crisp and fresh. I noticed you left little gifts behind. The small shoots on naked trees. The white flower buds slowly awakening from slumber. Gathering strength and courage while awaiting your orders. Preparing to launch in full effect.

When will this day arrive? We can only take so much of Lord Winter’s frost. His winds that bite into our bodies and dark clouds that brings about endless gloom. It is not as if he hasn’t treated us well. It is just that we are tired of the cold and dullness of our surroundings. We shiver in anticipation of the day when his reign ends.

We hope you hear our pleas. Till then my sweet lady.

Your loyal subject.

Labels: Random

She couldn’t sleep. Her body heaved with every sob. She sat up and pulled her knees up towards her chin. She hated this. She hated feeling this way.

For 2 months now she wouldn’t allow herself to think this way. To bring up the past she tried so hard to push to the back of her mind. She had convinced herself she was fine. Evidently she wasn’t.

After all this while she still wanted him to want her. She knew though, that he never did and thus she was just what? A pawn in his game with a certain lady with whom his true heart lies? So what was she? A distraction that did not work? Coz he sure is working his way to his real goal now isn’t he?

Anger seared through her body. She grit her teeth hard. What the hell was wrong with her? She should know he isn’t worth the tears. SHE SHOULD KNOW. She did. But that didn’t stop her from breaking down. Again. She didn’t allow herself to do so but she knew that this week she had valid reason for the wayward behavior of her emotions. ‘Just this once,’ she thought.

She knew what she needed now. Just a little encouragement. But she knew she got plenty of those already, and when her mind was set on being miserable, that’s all she could think of. How in the world was she going to convince herself that someone better would come along? She was still trying to shake off the surreal fact that she was in love with someone who would never love her back.

She pinched herself as traces of dawn reached her window. She pulled up the covers and commanded her demons to let her sleep. Even if for awhile.


*You know the Mariana Trench? My self esteem is in there somewhere. If you find it, please return it to me ASAP. Preferably b4 my biotech test next Friday. Thanks.

* How the fuck do you LET GO of someone. Dammit. Its not a easy job sial. Why is it that some people can get over their former loves with a snap. And I have to mope for ages. Id rather be locked in a room and asked to tolerate all of Is and Omar’s sengal jokes and even more sengal laughter. Okay. That made me smile. That and the phrase ‘boys are toys’. Actually that made me snort n laugh out loud. :P. See, I feel better already. *sigh*. The power of Liz’s sarcasm and my own inane jokes.

Labels: Boys, Emo, Friends

I was giving myself a silent pep-talk on my way to chem lab this afternoon, which I was already late for. I was just sooo into thinking about how even after hitting a snag, n losing my momentum to study and in between feeling unfulfilled abt stupid, mindless, hormone induced *ahem* pangs I should be able to pull myself up and that things go on coz ppl who haf been thru worse r goin abt doin pretty darn good with their lives. Anyway, I was too self consumed with my thoughts that I didnt realise I forgot my lab manual. When I finally did I was already at the entrance of the building so I had to double back n get it. The trip back to my room and back once again to the lab was punctuatd with self berating thoughts and constant self bashing, teeth gritting annoyance at myself. Ironic kan? Just a moment ago I was optimistic n then the next moment my head is filled with negative thoughts. To put a long story short, I haf to haf a make up lab on fri, whr i haf class frm 9 til 3. So if ive got lab at 3 i finish at 5. Aftr that Ive gota attend the chem test at 5 (that is if i get to CHANGE the bloody TIME) which will end at 6pm. Then Ive gota hop on d bus to d City fo the UMNO meetin at 7pm. Mak Ai. Nak pengsan kot. Nice one Doro, uve managed to screw urself up again. Over wat? Juicy pieces of info? right.

Labels: Emo, Uni

Im super tired. I just spent 5 hours serving customers at Selera Sejati's stall at Mfest. Twas fun anyway. Even tho i could only get tiny glimpses of the performances. But yea, serving food wit PPMS n d Gedik Queens was fun. :D. Met plenty of Msian ppl. I cldnt believe that thr were THAT many Msians residing in Sydney. Students, pensioners, families. It was great seeing a part of my country out here In Aussie. Made me feel rite at home again. Funnily enuff i got to meet my old hi skool frens like Caroline who i havent seen for d past wat, 3 yrs? n of course Nabilah! N i saw my new pilot frens frm Bankstown n hung out wit my current Sydney family. :D






Okie gtg study. Or eat sumthin. Or both. Love Love.

Cant wait 4 nxt yr! Hopefully d weathers just as great n so's d company.

Labels: Friends, Mfest

Crud. No more Gol n Gincu! *sniff sniff*. I LOVE that show. It truly depicts the lives of young Msians. Thats how my frens n I are in reality. The whole manglish and mish mash of cultures. Its just superb. Another thing is, it reminds me of home as I sit at my desk hundreds of miles away, wishing I was back home gulping down teh tarik n hangin out wit my frens at OU or the Curve. Tapi takpe. I love my frens here n we have as much fun here (perhaps more durin special events *coughMGMcough*) as we do back home. But yea, anyway, SO ends one of my FAVE original tv shows. But hey, Prison Break just started n I think Im gettin d whole Scofield fever once again. ;P

Labels: TV Shows