Just got back from one of those CMB seminars. Fini's supe gave a presentation on his work and his *ahem* wedding. :) I really like seeing the way he presents. Not at all dull. Everything he said sounded so appealing. The research group he was with, the promising projects they were working on, the simple experiments he conducted and all that traveling and fresh new atmosphere. Not to mention that I find the science interesting. Yes, I'm still a science geek after all.
That's just it. It always sounds so appealing on paper, in pictures, through spoken words. In truth, when you get down to the nitty gritty of things, when you're in between everything, the glimmer fades.
I've always been amused with a researcher's life. Spotting my supe's sports car and counting the amount of countries they've visited (whether for work or play) made me hold on to the notion of better things to come. But of course, I managed to be disillusioned by all the fabulous things and miss all the hard work and all that brain picking. It's much like wanting to be a pop star and having their wealth without actually having much talent or willingness to put up with training. And seriously, just because you take voice lessons doesn't make you Whitney Houston.
What's the conclusion here. I don't know. Make it up yourself. It's either: A) you need hard work to get what you want in life. B) don't be conned by the highs of a certain career if you're not willing to put up with the lows. C) find and choose something you'd WANT to put up with, highs AND lows. D) you will never be Whitney Houston. EVER.
Ahaaa! another flashback! Please don't follow the advice of Ms Houston. If you understand the lyrics that is. If you're just taking the words from the chorus then fine. Go ahead. Your partner would cair most definitely.
I just made those for brunch. Oh GLORIOUS. I'm feeling slightly ill today. I've got a sore throat am feeling totally wiped out. But these babies made me grin. And my heart soar. Then i felt sleepy. Imagine all the fibre! oh yes! They're absolutely good for u! Imma go have another one soon. :D
My mom was talking about soulmates the other day. How do you know you've found yours? What in tarnations is a soulmate? Why is my bowel doing the limbo now? Okay abaikan. If you've got answers do tell me. Sounds fascinating!
Last night had another one of those inspiring talks with mamochka. I'm so blessed to have such a supportive mother. :)
She gave me an option that could open up so many opportunities for me. It would probably be tough considering I'd be WAY out of my comfort zone and I won't have the luxury of a steady allowance from a sponsor. But it seems worth considering because of the amount of paths it could lead to. I'm bookmarking it fo sho. ;)
I've been trying to collect stories and aspirations from other people to see what they're striving to do or become in the future. In hopes I would in turn get inspired and find out my dreams and ways to achieve them.
Some wouldn't mind working in their chosen field and collect as much salary as possible to get that dream house and car. Some just want to slave away for a few years before pursuing what they really want. Some plan on furthering their studies, either in the same course or something totally different. Some plan on just settling down. Some dream big and shun what is considered the norm.
They're all very appealing in some respects and yet, I can't seem to figure out what I want. Maybe not yet but with the advent of several choices rolling my way, it seems to be getting clearer.
I hope my future is brighter somewhat and like I said on twitter: I don't want something easy. I want something that makes me feel that all the hardship I endure is worthwhile and satisfactory, not hellish. As long as it's something that makes me feel fulfilled, I wouldn't mind struggling for it.
I was waiting for the bus in front of the hospital for 45 minutes. I was cold, tired and my head was pounding. I look down to see the honey we bought at Balmain markets had spilled all over my groceries. I got really pissed off so I decided to just walk home. At 1045 pm. The moment I left the bus stop I started crying really badly. After a few minutes I saw TWO 400 buses going past me. TWO! wadafak? Of course, I cried even harder. I'm talking deep heaving sobs here.
Then I went over to Unit 39. Had some food and a LOOOONGG convo with Erin. Made me laugh and smile again. Did I hear someone say moodswings??
Man, I'm such a weirdo.
In actual fact, I had such a lovely day yesterday with Hawa and Anas. It's been AGES since I last hung out with them outside. We went to Balmain, bought some Zumbo cakes (SEDAP GILA), walked to Rozelle, ate a super late lunch, went back to the city and looked at a couple of interior design exhibitions. FUN! :D
Oh well. Now it's back to the grind. Oh wait, I have a bday thingy to attend to. Even though malas nak mati. Sigh. Ok kena masak now bye.
A dash of Disney, a sprinkle of pop punk, lashings of sweet treats, a pinch of superheroes, bundles of laughter and a tinge of crankyness.
All wrapped up in a pretty package that resembles the Cookie Monster.
Also self proclaimed Princess of Le Cupcake Kingdom
People I love. Music. Sweet treats. Singing animals. Movies. Princes. Books. Fables. Hindustan Heroes.
Sinks my Ship
Rude people working in hospitality and sales. Long queues. Idiots CUTTING long queues. People who Patronise.
Wishlist
To finally figure out what I'm meant to do. To travel the world. To eat anything without gaining ungodly amounts of weight. To get my happily ever after. :)
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