There will be Rainbows today
Oh boy. I'm feeling pretty nauseous now. I have NO idea why. Last night I had one of my attacks before falling asleep.
This really has to stop. No really. Please? I really, really cannot keep going through this every single day. It isn't fair.
I know God only gives dugaan to those He knows can face it.
So i suppose it is fair?
Are we meant to understand why we're going through all this or are we just meant to power through it without figuring out the underlying meaning?
Right now. What I would love more than anything, is to have someone tell me:
Shaheera Djafar, we have decided to let you finish honours in 1 and a half years instead of 1 year. You can do your coursework next semester and just concentrate on your thesis. Oh, and even for your thesis, we'll allow you to postpone everything by a MONTH.
I'm the Queen of Wishful Thinking.
One day, I'll set up an agency where you can order random acts of sweetness to be delivered to your sweethearts.
One day, I will meet someone who will impart all his/her knowledge about spiritual stability and contentment to me.
Maybe all this guilt and unhappiness is weighing me down. Maybe. Sabby, I really wanted to have brekkie with you. I really did. But I have to submit something to my supervisor. And now I'm feeling bad coz I couldn't hang with you. Sigh.
Imagine if Corrine Bailey Rae could come and sing away all my negativity. It's the opposite of Ariel and Ursula's ritual. Does that make sense? No? Okay.
Labels: Emo, Rambling, Random