I Deny the Tears in My Eyes

I dah tak larat dah. I cannot go on doing nonsense like this. Our lives no longer intersect, so why should I bother pretending or wishing it did? I've trudged this road before, and I got through alright. I just need to practise more restraint and have more willpower.

I feel really guilty thinking that the world is unfair to me. In actual fact, I am VERY blessed to have what I own right now. The amount of people who love me, Alhamdulillah, are just amazing. And the fact that my heart is filled with so much love for each of them, keeps me going.

Times are tough. I do not enjoy the pressure of what I'm doing. I can't really see a future in what I'm doing now, which is sad but at least I tried to find out. Who knows, I might change my mind after I get used to things.

I do not have ambitious dreams. I do not have dreams at all. I do not know what I can do to earn money and at the same time give me some form of fulfillment. A proud sense of achievement would suffice, but even then, nothing I do is enough for that. Maybe I'm a slacker after all.

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@ Tuesday, May 05, 2009 6:25 PM

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