No meeting today! :D
Saturday catchups are great. Conversations over coffee are even better. Talking about life is so overrated but we love doing it anyway. Thanks to the Newtown boys. And Erin. :D I wouldn't realise how much I've accomplished and how many people observe my achievements until I have people tell them to me.
Erin and I were discussing about being the eldest in the family. How sometimes we feel as if we're the experiment and how our parents learn about raising kids through their mistakes with us. And how they raise our younger siblings differently. I'm sure they can't help it, and one day, we'd do the same.
What we don't get however, is why our younger siblings/cousins, always think that everything is so easy for us. They don't really understand, carrying this burden of constantly having to show a good example, of having to make the family proud, is not an easy task. I know they get compared to us ever so often, like Kakak gets to fly overseas, Kakak has so many responsibilities, Kakak is this and that, and I understand they feel frustrated with this. But honestly, it's not an easy task. We're all struggling here. I don't think they understand that having three assignments all due in one week, filling your weekends with meetings, while having to cook every night and do housework on most days is not an easy task. I mean we have the upper hand of experience and maturity but my dears, the reason why Kakak wants to be spoiled when she's back home is that she has to do everything herself here. You kids get everything served on a platter in front of you every day.
And Erin was saying, that every time she's doing assignments or tests, she's so afraid she'd fail because she's so worried that she'll disappoint everyone. I feel the same way. It's not just about letting ourselves down, it's about letting everyone else down. Our families, our juniors, our student officers, the Malaysian community here (I exaggerate). But especially our parents and our Adiks. The unspoken pressure is enormous. The adiks think that we don't get pressured to do our best, but trust me little ones, we do and its just as hard on us as it is on you. :)
Labels: Family, Friends, Rambling
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