And no, I'm not the one to blame, It's you. Or is it me?
Just a warning. Some might find this painful. Don't bother asking me about it. Its not pinpointing one specific person, noone has the sole priveledge of making my heart currently ache. Nor is it something absolutely recent. I'm just suddenly emo after having one of those girl talks. Bleargh.
Hmm. I just realised that it happened again. I'm second best. Never the one and only. Always the one who falls short and the one pushed aside.
I wonder why it keeps happening to me. Why do guys who need distractions look for me? Am I only there to fill in the voids? I know I listen to all your rants, all your lovesick pent up emotions. Does that mean you can fall for me and realise halfway that I'm not even close to your expectations then backing out? At which point I've already fallen for you?
It's quite funny really. Not once. Not twice. Same thing. Someone else pointed it out btw.
I reject things that are right and revere things that are wrong.
Owh well. I still have faith in what Erin said as we waited for the bus. About going through all this crap before settling for the real thing. Lucky mom and dad to have had something early on. Lucky friends who are deeply engrossed in love. Haha.
Song of the moment: It's not over by Secondhand Serenade.
God, lagu emo tak le blaaaaa.....
On the plus side, I have increased my collection of special skittles and reese's confectionary. I feel so geeky chic. Hahahaha. Well. Even if I dont have my boys, I at least have my special edition sweet stuff. Ngeh Ngeh Ngeh.
Labels: Boys, Emo, Rambling