Head in the Clouds
Everytime I watch sappy movies, I get this sense of yearning and longing for many things. I used to be able to express them as freely as I wanted to. I complained to my friends, I wrote detailed essays on them in this blog, and I note them down in scraps of paper at random intervals.
But I can't anymore. I don't dare to. Why? Because I notice that every time I do, weird things start happening to me. (Oh shut up and quit humming the X Files theme). Think of it as an answer to my 'prayers'. Just not the answers I wanted or what I was looking for. They may be other people's answers, just not mine.
I'm not sure if it's too cryptic for you but it's a bit hard for me to explain while keeping it under wraps. I so want to share with the world what I want, what I miss, what I long for. I am only a young human lady after all. But I know someone might just come up and say 'here, you wanted this right?' and it totally knocks the wind out of me because they've taken it out of context. And I end up filling myself up with guilt and plenty of 'No's.
Okay, pardon me if it's all gibberish to you.
I think I'll go detox onto my notebook.
Labels: Emo, Rambling