I am totally guilty of not studying or doing anything academic this past week.
However, this fact is extremely liberating and it somehow makes me feel happy.
*shuts ears and stops listening to voice that says I'm wasting time*
I think books are good food for the soul. It feeds your inner desires. It breaks your mundane repetitions. It opens your heart to bigger things, not just the ones you see in front of you now. It digs deep and exposes your fears into open air.
Sometimes I think I get so stressed out about things. Like how not being in Kelab UMNO will make me feel left out and sad. How I've let Erin and Mad down by bowing out. How I've lost out on opportunities to further cement my place in KUNSW history. And I also think how every moment spent not studying or not doing assignments is a moment lost. I wince every time I find Justin and Fini doing their reports. I get a sinking feeling in my gut as my friends discuss exam timetables.
Then I read a book. One which tells of a woman on her journey of self discovery. One which I'm suppose to give Mummy for Mother's Day. Whoops. :)
That coupled with what my friend said about life being too short to commit yourself to endless studying, made me shed all that guilt and allow myself to be happy and at peace with myself.
You know like how happy cows make more tender meat? Well, a happier Sheera would certainly (hopefully) produce better results. Oh and I'm also very carina when I'm happy. Hahaha.
I'm not saying I'm going to quit school. No. Far from it. I'm just making sure I don't push myself to a breaking point when I don't need to. It isn't exam time. I can still manage to finish my assignments on time if I pace myself. I know I can. And if I can do it with a smile on my face, then all the better. Aaaannnd, you people don't have to hear me whine about pms for long. :D
All this talk about 'being at peace' with oneself makes me sound old. Geez. I'm sure I'll be a tempest in the next month or so and I'd have to rediscover myself again. Oh well. Bring it on. :)
Labels: Books, Rambling, Uni