If Only I Could Have a Cheeseburger Now
Ever heard the words 'If Only' being uttered in the relationship context? For instance: 'If only she would love me as much as I love her' or 'If only he didn't leave me' or 'If only she'd realise I'm a better guy than that jerkass bf of hers' and etc.
I know I tend to use that phrase a lot. There was this once, I was crying to my bestie, Liz, about how IF ONLY this guy were to straighten out his confused emotions, he would make the best boyfriend and I would be SO happy because we had so much in common and he knew how to treat me right. She asked me, "How sure are you you'd be happy?". "Of course I'd be happy," I replied. "Really, Doro?" she snapped back. I kept my mouth shut and thought of what she said.
Of course, she was right. How WOULD we know we'd be happy or happIER? It's fair to say one should give it a try but seriously, if what you wish for keeps falling from your grasp, there's a reason it isn't yours to begin with.
This is where faith comes in. All those 'if only's happened for a reason. Perhaps God wanted to test you or protect you. The end result, I believe, is to make you a stronger person. Maybe you're not with someone because being with them would allow you to self destruct. Maybe you offer more benefits as a friend rather than a spouse to certain people. You just have to trust that whatever God gives you, is the best. You may not think so at that moment but in retrospect, things will seem clearer.
I have to keep reminding myself this daily. And I have to keep reassuring myself that it's better this way. :)