Make the most of Boundaries
I had a nice talk with my mom last night. She said that I can't handle too much negative energy because instead of deflecting them, I tend to absorb them. It's just me. I'm trying to change this though. I'm learning how to not take outer factors to heart, especially things that don't concern me.
Where do all these negative energy come from? The number one cause for me is other people's problems. Whenever my friends get depressed or something is bothering them, they confide in me. Generally, I don't mind because that's what friends are for and I wouldn't only want to be with them when they're happy. But eventually, as the discussions pile up and anxiety builds up, all the negative energy starts to flow into me. They transfer their burdens onto my shoulders and I end up feeling depressed for no particular reason. It's okay if it's few and far between but that's never the case.
What I realise then that when I went to Bowral, I was surrounded by such amazing and happy people. Such positivity and warmth flowed in from everyone, even the cats. How could I NOT feel complete bliss there? It was exactly what I needed. I refuled my optimism and came back rejuvenated spiritually. I thank God I was allowed to experience all that and pull me up from le pit of doom. :)
Therefore now, I'm trying hard to remain positive and I try to spend time with people who are very optimistic (Here's looking at you Sabby :D). Not to say I don't like hanging out with my other friends. I love you guys more than you know. I just wish you'd understand what I'm saying here and how much I've had to bear. There's a stark difference between unloading your negativity and accumulating postive ones. I didn't talk about my problems in Bowral but I still came out feeling like a millionabucks. ;)
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