I strip down my dignity
Girls and women alike have always been pressured by society to have a great body and an idealised weight. Most people succumb to it. All because their boyfriends think they're too fat, their mother won't let them have dessert and they can't share clothes with their girlfriends. But I'm not going into that. You people have long debated and defended your sides. Nope, I'm going to be selfish as usual and talk about myself. More specifically girls MY SIZE.
We're more of the in-betweens. I know I'm smaller than some people and they always reinstate the fact that I'm not fat. It's obvious that I'm not thin. So I'm not overweight and obese neither am I slim or thin. I suppose logically, one would think that this is the ideal weight. NO. This is worse.
Big, voluptuous girls have their own ambassadors like Queen Latifah and America Ferrera before she caved in to the pressures of Hollywood. These women flaunt their extra curves and compliment their bodies with a vivacious and outgoing attitude. We're too small (in their terms) to join the sorority.
Thin, waif-like women also have their role models: Kate Moss and Twiggy. We most definitely don't fit in among their modelesque figures and stick thin legs.
Then there are the prized hourglass slim figurines. The epitome of beauty and womanhood agreed unanimously by both genders. Na ah. We don't fit here either. There's still a little bit of love handles, those thighs surely can't fit a size 6 and my oh my, if u flap your arms hard enough, you might take off.
So what happens to girls who never refuse dessert? The ones who squeam at the thought of diet pills? We're never good enough for society. Always just a little too big or too small to be looked at twice. Mostly though it's always being too fat. 'Who cares about that tubby girl anyway?'..'Tak cun la.'..'Nak peluk pon tak muat.'
Okay, now I feel slightly depressed. (Inconsiderate, male chauvinistic pigs who have bellies due to that extra portion of kue tiau at 4 am on most nights). Oops. That just came out. :D
But whenever I have body issues, I reduce my portions for the day and tell myself: Alaa, even though tembam, at least lawa...muahahahaha.