Cupcake Maestro!
I just had the BEST cupcakes (in my humble opinion) in the ENTIRE world.
Chocolate cupcakes with peanut butter and cream cheese filling and chocolate frosting.
Totally to die for and made full of love by the newest chef back home, Aqeemul Akhsan Djafar. This boy knows EXACTLY what I love in cupcakes because he has the same taste as me (we used to compete who'd get most of the moist chocolate kerak). The sweetheart found the recipe and told his mom 'We have to make this, kakak would love it!' and he was absolutely right. Tee Hee.
Thank you Aqeem! You certainly made my day yesterday and I <3>
ps: Im going through Fables withdrawal. I seriously need to read the new episodes. I don't care if I keep on missing Heroes and GG but I cannot live without Fables. Pfft.
Owh 3 days to With Love, Down Under folks!!! :D
Blackie on the loose!
Goddamit! Im SO addicted! Muahahaha...sly black cats have never been so much fun!
Chat Noir
Cross courts and guitar picks
Today may have started off with me being cranky. But it surely graduated to feelings of elation. Hee.
The late afternoon and evening was spent in front of the teevee with my dad n bro. For 3 hours I pretended I was in Melbourne. I was even debating between ice cream at Lygon or cake at Crown. I cheered and screamed at every ace, missed shot and volley. And when the two finalists pat each others backs and commended the other player during their speeches, I clutched my heart and let out a huge 'Awwww..'.
If you haven't figured out THE event of the month then BOO for you. I was watching the mens singles finals for the Australian Open. Its been ages since Ive watched tennis what more with the Raja Rumah. Even so, my dream of watching a Grand Slam live is still planted firmly in my heart. So hopefully by my final year, I'll be one of those shrieking fans with painted faces holding up banners in Rod Laver Arena.
Oh, and I just got back from No Black Tie. A million thanks to Erin and her parents for picking me up. Hee. It was great finally being able to watch Reza Salleh live (although I vaguely remember catching him at Laundry last year) and also Yunalis! This girl is AMAZING. Her voice is so velvety smooth, her beats are catchy, her melodies are sweet and her lyrics tug at your heartstrings. And it was great seeing her again after god knows how many years. Do look out for her in the future. With talent like that, she will sure be going places. No. I'm not biased just because I know her.
Reza Salleh of course brought the house down. It's clear how he has managed to cement his name in the local indie/accoustic scene with his beautiful songs that have lyrics either dripping in honey or as heart-aching as a former loves' goodbye letters. Okay, I exaggerate but he's THAT good! Everyone was tapping their fingers on the table or moving their heads to his rhythm. And his voice, Oh My Goodness, just made me melt the moment he executed the first few lines from his first song.
Owen Nicholas is not bad. Sorry, he's pretty good but it's not really the kind of music I go for. But the lyrics were pretty cool!! I have to give him credit for that. :D
Before I babble incoherently on, I shall then retreat with a final Kudos to Novak Djokovic, Jo-Wilfried Tsonga, Reza Salleh and Yunalis Mat Zara'ai.
sheer raw talent absent
I suppose being musically inclined and artistically gifted isn't hidden somewhere in my chromosomes. Maybe it's masked by inane stuff like the subtle art of picking my nose in private. Maybe it's been destroyed or mutated by my mom's excessive usage of the microwave when I was a kid. Or all the coffee she drank when she was pregnant with me.
However, this does not stop me from adoring real talented individuals. My family, my friends, acquaintances, and of course, the random celebrity. Yes, I lie in my bed night after night, wishing I could play the guitar well, imagining creating sketches of pin up models and dreaming of capturing those beautiful sunsets on print. I also imagine Alex Gaskarth writing songs for me. Muahahaha.
Alas, this fair maiden lacks what she needs. Sheer Raw Talent. Oh well. If only sleep was an art form. Id surely be crowned maestro of snoozes!
Speaking of which, off i drag my glutes to bed. May 2mrw be a less pessimistic day. :D
So quit your life, stay with me, we'll order in and watch tv.
I suppose once I start feeling hungry at night, I should just fall asleep.
Watch Juno! Its supersweet, heartwarming, sassy and funny. Watch Deathproof too! Okay, maybe that should be reserved for Tarantino fans only. Because it's a bit draggy..but that's the point!
I do realise that whenever I give movie reviews, they're peppered with praise for said movie. Well, if I didn't like a movie, I wouldn't be recommending it to everyone!
I watched a show on Arranged Marriages just now. Creeps the bejeezus out of me. Because, my mom said that she will lovingly intervene if I'm still single when I'm 35. I also have cultivated a fear of having my husband kill me in my sleep.
Is it okay to like someone without having them like you back? Is that like emotionally healthy?
I've had the opportune moment to catch such beautiful sunsets for the past 3 days. All different yet gives the same effect. Sigh.
Inspiration in the doldrums
Saturdays for me, very rarely start at 7 am. But yesterday was different. My mom had to attend one of the adopted schools of Petronas' Program Bakti to give a speech and meet the kids and their parents. So I tagged along. :D
Prior to this, I didn't really understand what my mom did since she moved to Corporate Affairs. Only recently have I learnt what she and the rest of her department are doing, how dedicated some Petronas staff are and how the company has amazingly found ways of improving children's lives.
Program Bakti is not your average charity project. It’s not a ‘collect money and donate for expenses’ fund. This program targets underprivileged children who are getting low marks in school and gives them free tuition. Besides that, once a month, volunteer Petronas staff go over to the schools and have various activities with the children in English. They play games, do work exercises and learn new things. This lets the children strengthen their grip on English, improve their confidence and motivate them to do better.
Its ingenious really, if we want the nation to produce a better, more ambitious society, then where else to start if not in schools through education? Adults have the responsibility to mould these children to be better individuals socially, spiritually and mentally. Schools are perfect avenues for this and Petronas has taken it upon them to provide kids who really need help with the tools to improve their lives. Statistics show that there has been a significant improvement in their overall performance, including their discipline and behavior.
Another thing I find absolutely astonishing is that the volunteers are Petronas staff that are not being paid overtime or coerced into taking part in this program. They do it out of the goodness of their heart and seriously, it isn’t easy taking time out of ones busy schedule to deal with impetuous children without any concrete benefits. But every year they come back for more and the emotional profit is reflected in their proud smiles every time a student excels.
I now have a new found appreciation for my mom’s job, Petronas’ efforts and unselfishness as well as the volunteers. Thanks mom. :D
When not everyone is autistic
I was reading this book by Mark Haddon, The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time. The protagonist is an autistic boy of fifteen with an amazing mind that's logical and superb with numbers. He however, is not adept at social interactions. He despises people touching him and he doesn't understand emotions. When in doubt, he crawls into a small, enclosed space and sits there in silence. With all his idiosyncrasies, it's hard for him to navigate through the real world. But once people know of his condition, they 'allow' him to behave that way, because he isn't posing any threat to anyone.
Why is it then, that if 'normal' people were to crawl into nooks and crannies, who detest being touched, and who would rather read books in room corners than mingle at parties are viewed as weird and socially unacceptable?
Some people rather use the treadmill at the edge of the gym because they hate people staring at them when they workout. Some people rather walk around malls while listening to their ipods because they feel secure when they don't have to interact with other people.
Not everyone goes out with the intention of meeting new people or to get lucky. Not everyone feels the urge to meet old friends every day and reminisce every night. Not everyone appreciates being picked up at the gas station or supermarket.
So why don't the rest of us loosen up and cut these people some slack once in awhile?
ps: I watched Cloverfield. SUPERB!!! The concept is one of a kind and I totally loved it. Seeing through first person perspective makes the whole thing scarier. However, not everyone could appreciate it. They wanted answers and explanations but I was content with the ending.
Coz a girl like you is impossible to find
Okay, I lied. That night I said I was making a resolution list for my birthday, I didn't get round to it. Sheer laziness and pure denial I suppose. I really didn't sit down to think what I wanted to achieve this year. And I believe monthly or weekly resolutions work better.
Anyway, Arif and Sunny told me I was too comfortable with the group of friends I already have. (Kan dah letak dalam blog...). Therefore they said that I should 'expand my social circle'. Hmm. Easier said than done. But I shall try.
Resolution number 1: Expand Social Circle
It is also evident that I get very emo often. No no, not like those MCR kids. Just pms-y. Most times, I dont know when I'll feel this way. I'm not kidding or trying to garner attention when I do though. Most times it does really make me feel irritable or sad. Therefore, I decided that whenever I'm not, which SHOULD be more than half the time, I should make the most of it and be happier and more cheerful. More smiles, more laughs, more talking to people. No being a recluse and etc.
Resolution number 2: Be Generally Happier
I've been stumped lately by the people around me. It shows how immature and inexperienced I really am. But it's okay, it helps keep my feet on the ground. Which is why I've decided on putting more effort in learning day-to-day real stuff that can't be taught in classrooms. It could be trivial stuff like where to pay what bills or which roads are the easiest and fastest to get home. Or it could be more serious matters like how do you invest your money in the most rewarding way. And I should depend on people less now. It's hard though being at home. :D
Resolution number 3: Be independent and Learn More
There are the obvious usual ones like: being a better Muslim, being a better student, eating better, have proper sleeping patterns, exercise more.
I wish everyone luck with all their resolutions. I don't remember any of my old ones so I can't say if I've achieved them. Muahahaha..
ps: I think I've been listening to too many slow emo songs lately. Detrimental to ones emotional health. So kids, stay away from Leona Lewis and Secondhand Serenade. And Faber Drive.
Tell by your tone, I've taken it too far again
I just got back from a family weekend break. Actually it was work for my mom. And she made me tag along. I've learnt a few things along the way:
I absolutely loath whatever my mother pushes me to do. The more she makes me do things, the more I stand my ground with a scowl. Not prettyyyyy....Even if I DO give in, I wont put my heart into it because it wasn't what I chose.
I also hate having to do these things in front of her staff. You see, whatever I do, will reflect on her and I know I am bound to embarrass her at some point. And no, I do not appreciate being sized up behind my back. Therefore, I refrain from joining any of their activities. ESPECIALLY because I'm their boss' daughter.
My mother is trying to set me up with someone. And I shall leave it at that. No more questions, thank you very much. I find it all VERY disturbing really. But um, she probably has good taste. :P.
There comes a point in time where daddies will have to let their little girls make their own decisions without his input, or without including him in the overall plan. He may allow this to happen but very reluctantly. He may give you all the freedom to make your own choices but he will say things that will make your heart fill with immense guilt. And no, he NEVER makes it seem that HE is the one who NEEDS YOU. He always hides his true emotions behind someone or something else. Oops, sorry for the bursting your bubble, daddies. :D
And thus ends my weekend babble. Tee Hee. Owh I am IN LOVE with this song from Faber Drive, When I'm With You. :D. Okla pakcik, for this you deserve THREE muffins!
Tell me princess now when did u last let your heart decide?

Oooh! I bought this special edition Disney Princesses Uno! I might not play with it but its a collectors item indeed! I am elated! :D
Picture by Toys R Us
like the perfect one word noones heard yet
The highlight of this week so far would be meeting Madam Gouri. Tee Hee. She is still amazing and she still manages to make me feel so good about myself. And I finally got to rant on about how disappointed I am with the state of the country's crime rates. It was great discussing it with her, without her looking bored, or patronising me just because I'm still young. Thats what I like about her the most, how she treats us like adults.
Thanks Asma and Syaz for that great day! :D owh n Pn Mazura, Pn Amani n Pn Azani too!
That nite, the sydneysiders had a lepaking session at Pelita. Its been sooo long since we've done tht. Huhu. Felt good too. :D
Ah yes, I wanted to update you guys on my cupcake hunting adventure. I was surprised to see so many outlets selling cupcakes here as I thought the craze hasn't fully caught on.
My first stop was Cupcake Chic at the Curve. They just opened their shop a few doors away from Secret Recipe and I bought half a dozen cupcakes for my family. It was pretty good but it was too sweet for my liking. (GASP, Doro finds them TOO sweet???). The variety on sale was awesome though. Thumbs up for that.
Next was Cuppacakes cupcakes that were sold at The Apartment, also at The Curve. These were the cupcakes I've been raving about all through last year. So I knew I had to taste one of those babies. So I stared in awe at the minuscule treat the waiter plonked in front of me. And sad to say, I was quite disappointed. It tasted like cheap cake with cheap icing. Like the ones you can buy at Coles. The cupcake was too dense for my liking and there was just toooo much icing. Sigh.
Third time's the charm, I thought. And YES! I had the chocolate cupcake with peanut butter frosting at Delish in Bangsar Village. OMG. It was the BEST cupcake Ive tasted so far!!! Okay, maybe Im biased coz it has peanut butter. But dude, it was heaven! Especially when warmed up slightly. 5 Stars from me.!Im sure from now on, if I'm gonna get my cupcake fix, its gonna be from Delish.
I is too pissed to think of a good title
Yea. Im uber pissed off coz Im in a cybercafe with a bunch of kids shouting as they try to conquer other worlds in cyberspace.
Streamyx, I'm holding u completely responsible for any morally corrupt things I say or do while Im here. Because if u hadn't been 'blinking' i wldnt have to be here! Goddamit! How can u extract money from people and offer such shoddy service!
AND I cant bloody open youtube! Paaaaaaaaaaaahh!!!
On a lighter note, wait..there IS NO GODDAMN LIGHTER NOTEEEEE! Its been a bad day. Not because everything went wrong. Its just coz I woke up on the wrong side of bed at the wrong side of TWELVE. GODDAMN PILLSSSSS. Okay it was one pill. GODDAMN ALLERGIES!!!!!!
Okay I cannot stand it here anymore. Off I scoot. Bye! Thanks for listening to me rant dear blog, without you I'd rot and fester in this hellhole of stinky schoolchildren.
I need a little more help than a little bit
Now, if only someone like Alex Gaskarth would fall in love with me. And I had hair like that girl in the tongue tied vid. And talent equivalent to Juliet Simms. I'd be quite happy lah.
Okay maybe all I need now is a boyfriend. To drive me around at night.
*slaps myself*
Sorry. I don't need boys. I'm fully capable of taking care of myself.
*coughBULLSHITcough*
To answer the burning question in everyones minds: I'm still single because I'm picky, I don't wait until I fall in love and I'm a horrendous egoistic moron who has a penchant of running away.
(Yea, that would surely drive the boys away. Good job Doro.)
I wish pancetta and prosciuto were halal. Sigh.
When the river runs red
There actually is a Goddess of Menstruation in Egypt.
WOW.
Sekhmet was created by Ra to kill off the humans who were conspiring against him. After almost wiping out mankind, Ra bade her to stop but she could not as her bloodlust was unquenchable. Ra then tricked her into drinking from the Nile by turning in Red. As she gulped down water from the Blood red river, he turned it into beer which intoxicated her and sent her into a deep sleep. When she woke up, she had no recollection of what had happen. She became a benevolent goddess then.
I still cant get over the fact that she is a goddess of periods. I wonder if pms counts. Hahaha..
I strip down my dignity
Girls and women alike have always been pressured by society to have a great body and an idealised weight. Most people succumb to it. All because their boyfriends think they're too fat, their mother won't let them have dessert and they can't share clothes with their girlfriends. But I'm not going into that. You people have long debated and defended your sides. Nope, I'm going to be selfish as usual and talk about myself. More specifically girls MY SIZE.
We're more of the in-betweens. I know I'm smaller than some people and they always reinstate the fact that I'm not fat. It's obvious that I'm not thin. So I'm not overweight and obese neither am I slim or thin. I suppose logically, one would think that this is the ideal weight. NO. This is worse.
Big, voluptuous girls have their own ambassadors like Queen Latifah and America Ferrera before she caved in to the pressures of Hollywood. These women flaunt their extra curves and compliment their bodies with a vivacious and outgoing attitude. We're too small (in their terms) to join the sorority.
Thin, waif-like women also have their role models: Kate Moss and Twiggy. We most definitely don't fit in among their modelesque figures and stick thin legs.
Then there are the prized hourglass slim figurines. The epitome of beauty and womanhood agreed unanimously by both genders. Na ah. We don't fit here either. There's still a little bit of love handles, those thighs surely can't fit a size 6 and my oh my, if u flap your arms hard enough, you might take off.
So what happens to girls who never refuse dessert? The ones who squeam at the thought of diet pills? We're never good enough for society. Always just a little too big or too small to be looked at twice. Mostly though it's always being too fat. 'Who cares about that tubby girl anyway?'..'Tak cun la.'..'Nak peluk pon tak muat.'
Okay, now I feel slightly depressed. (Inconsiderate, male chauvinistic pigs who have bellies due to that extra portion of kue tiau at 4 am on most nights). Oops. That just came out. :D
But whenever I have body issues, I reduce my portions for the day and tell myself: Alaa, even though tembam, at least lawa...muahahahaha.