Yes. Yet another post. Because I have the luxury of time. And ideas.
Boys are more dense than lead. I am swearing off boys till I reach home.
Organic lab is finally overrrrr!! Melting point machines are cool. Especially when you see the damn thing melt in front of ur eyes. And watching crystals appear out of solutions are the bees knees as well.
They played one of the Eagles' songs on the Simpsons just now.
I spent a bundle today. But every cent was worth it. I feel SO happy. Especially the fact that I bought more stuff for my adik than for myself. He had better be thankful and happy. Coz I am.
You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet.
Desperaaaaaaadoooooooooooooooooooooooo...why dont u come to your senses???
Owhmahgawd. Eagles have just released their NEW album today. The old fogies havent had a new full studio album for 28 years. My gudness. Thats WAAAAY before I was born. Kekeke..Apparently they still sound the same. Well, why change a good thing? Hmm.
Daddy, If ur reading this, pegi beli! Iya nak dengar bila balik nanti. :P Btw, daddy, they're touring so if you're lucky they might drop by Asia. ;)
Desperado, Why don't you come to your senses? come down from your fences, open the gate. It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you. You better let somebody love you. (let somebody love you) You better let somebody love you...ohhh..hooo before it's too..oooo.. late.
Just know that in my heart, it beats (irregularly) for you.
Just when I thought it was over, the vacuum ceased to function.
Therefore, 9 am 2mrw will be dedicated to filtration by suction.
I've had it up to here *points finger to nose* with organic chemistry. Im sorry I keep bitching about it, I simply cant stand it. I was just SO looking forward to celebrating the end of lab for good today but yea, that didnt work out as planned. Which is why I had to console myself by hanging out with the boys. :D
I am SO handing in the reports either 2mrw or wednesday. Pah. My mind is too saturated with organo its taking too much of my time. Btw, I filled in a feedback form for the course. Lets just say that I put my writing skills to good use. Someone came up to me and said, 'Im SO glad u put that down', referring to my point at how not everyone is a chemistry major and thus not familiar or comfortable with the experiments and its procedures. (which was followed with more membebel and how sucky the course was. I complained more than I complimented obviously). The point here is that I'm not the only one feeling the stress for this subject. Some people have even given up on their experiments and are not coming in 2mrw. Pah.
Crap. Now I feel like I have arrhythmia. Scaaaryyyy..
Gimme an M! Gimme an O! Gimme a T! I! V! A! Gimme another T! Gimme an I! O! N! MOTIVATION!!!!
*a string of expletives follows*
I am soooo nervoussss!!! Why? Just because. Hahaha. I have my reasons but they're too stupid to mention. And totally unnessecary. I hope he's nice n not patronising and garang. O_O. Cuak gila plis. I feel sooooo stupiddddd! As in tak pandai. As in boleh fail paper. Yea. That one.
May I have a dollop of motivation on my pancakes made from hard work and willpower please?
ku simpankan semua kenangan, mereka yang paling ku sayang
I was supposed to put this on last night but I kinda fell flat on the bed for the next 12 hours. Emotionally, physically and mentally wiped out. ANYWAY, here ya go:
I feel happy and content tonite. Its funny considering I was feeling like shit from 430-530 pm. That one hour mostly consisted of me sobbing uncontrollably either in the toilet or into my sheets. But that aside, my emotions have shifted to the other side of the wheel due to the Pasar Malam held by MSO here at uni.
I loved every minute of it.
I lovedscreaming out from our stall and getting everyone's attention. I loved watching the priceless expression on people's faces as the go, 'OMG! Is that ROJAK??!!!'. I loveddancing and singing and being all hyper to Three's a Crowd with Jams and Yaya when they played Generasiku. :D I loved being the only girl in the company of guy friends who were busy making dirty jokes that I understood and contributed. I lovedshishaing with Jaih, Hafiz, Eiman, Baiti, Wajdi n May on the steps of Barkers. I lovedeating EVERYTHING. Sorry I kept stealing food from you, Anas. :P.
But most of all, I LOVE the people I shared the whole experience with. I thank each and everyone of you who made this night special. You have no idea how much your attention has made me feel. You guys managed to pull me out of that stupid hellhole I was in a few hours ago. <3<3<3
A special thanks to Hawa and Fini for deciding to sell rojak buah. You girls never fail to amaze me tau. I am so honoured to have won your friendship. :D
ps: owh owh!! There was this one guy who came up to me and said, 'Hey, u look familiar. I know! I saw u at Mfest! Aiyo Amma!!!!'. Crap. Cant believe people actually remember that. Zek was laughing like hell. Paiseh...
I just found a bunch of random useless information on the web. Yea. As if I had all the time in the world.
'The first stall in a public restroom is usually the cleanest. Seeking privacy, most people skip it.' (right...I usually go to the 1st one so i can dash in n out fast. Esp. if I cant hold it in anymore.)
'The average public swimming pool contains more urine than flouride' (err..I guess no more swimming then.)
'Most toilets flush in E flat' (Okay..i found this very amusing.)
'Fish cough, walrus' burp, rabbits and horses can't vomit, shrimp only swim backwards'.
'Spider's blood are colourless'. Well, only when its deoxygenated. If it were oygenated it will appear blue. WHICH reminds me!!! I remember in Stardust, the princes blood was blue. Get it? Blue Blood? Being of royal blood?? Ah, i am SO easily amused.
If u want to read MORE useless random information, head onto here.
My good buddies Zek and Sunny came up with this list. It encapsulates what we have to tolerate about our mini family here. As they put it 'the measure of our friendship depends on whether we can stand these 8 things'
1. Hawa's gedickness.
2. Sheera's crankiness.
3. Fini's bingitness.
4. May's bimboness.
5. Arif's capubness.
6. Anas's pondanness.
7. Zek's pervertness.
8. Sunny's nomadness.
My, thats a lot of -ness'. As you can see, there's a lot to tolerate and I think we've all worked our way around them somehow. I dont flinch anymore when Fini sings an octave higher. I roll my eyes at Arif when he stands in front of the camera. I reply Zek's remarks with sarcasm.
And I sure as hell hope that they don't hate me whenever I start frowning and being bitchy. I know some of them have learnt to just shut up when that happens. Or give me chocolates. :P
It's funny really. Being able to overlook certain things when you've started loving someone. It doesn't have to be romantically. It's just the standard rule of friendship I presume. Accepting them for everything that they are and not leaving whenever their bad traits surface. I have many flaws but I am absolutely thankful that I have the company of people who accept these blemishes and who do not look down on me because of them.
Current song: My Beautiful Rescue, This Providence. (In preparation for Summer. Goddamit I can't wait to run away and leave that god forsaken subjecttttt!!! Grrr).
As of 5 pm today, I am the Marketing EP of 2008's Malaysia Festival.
Wooo Hooooooo!!! *cough* Alhamdulillah. :D.
Anyone interested in being a director, giving ideas or just lending a hand, feel free to contact me. I've already gotten two directors so I still need a few morecreative individuals who have a passion for all things Malaysian.
I am very fulfilled and thankful today. Im also very tired. And Ive been having severe moodswings lately, going from being really bitter one minute to hyper the next. And from being all happy back to being cranky in a flash. Argh. Rasa nak gigit diri sendiri. Pah.
Anyway, before I say stuff that will hurt people's feelings, I'd better pengsan on the bed for a few hours. Nite!
I very rarely wake up early. I've never been a morning person. My mom would gladly agree what with having to face the 'Supreme Royal Princess Of All Things Cranky' every morning for the past 21 yrs.
However, I woke up early enough this morning to enjoy a nice breakfast and the morning news. (Yes, I watched the NEWS). And I was quite surprised to find that I like it. I like being all fresh to class, feeling full and happy at the corny jokes the tv presenters were making. Owh and finding out the latest news of course.
I think I should do this more often. Hmm. Okay honestly I dont know if I can because the only way I can do that is by sleeping early and Im not sure with all my assignments I'll be able to do that. Today was an exception though. Because of last night's wisdom tooth episode, I managed to clock in at 1130 pm. Which is a huge achievement considering I usually sleep after subuh.
Owh well. As long as i can get 8 hours of sleep a day Im happy. Yes, EIGHT. Nothing less coz I get VERY cranky or I tend to have extended naps. Anyhoo..must be off to class then. Bye!
ps: Im sick. Again. For the 3rd time this semester. Pah. pps: sorry this is a boring post. I feel boring. I feel bored. I feel stuffed up. Cheers.
How many miles to Babylon? Three score miles and ten.
I had a pretty nice day today. :D.
Girl talk, (half) a family catchup, alone time and a date all in one day. Whee!
Had some window shopping, a beautiful movie and a great dinner.
Stardust is just splendid. Okay, so I got dissapointed coz they didnt follow the book. I guess it did spoil it for me initially because adventure and plot wise, the book is better (aren't they always?). However, in terms of romance, the movie wins hands down. Its super sweet. Well for me la. I cried for reasons unbeknownst to me. And Tristan Thorn looks absolutely smashing with shoulder length hair...*drool drool*.
So besides this dull throbbing in my head, Im pretty satiated.
I can't really say that Raya at home would be as fun as this. Considering even my dad drives back to the hotel to nap. And I'm surrounded by kids at least 5 years younger than me. Nevertheless, home and family during the festive season is worth missing.
Like asking for my parent's forgiveness on that crisp morning before heading off to the Masjid. Gorging on Cik Mimi's rendang for three meals for three days straight. Menganyam ketupat while the kids run around screaming at midnight.
Had a blast this Raya! An added bonus was that I had Adlil here, so a part of home was with me. Thanks for the camwhoring session luv! More food to come in the next few hours. ;) And even more festive cheer!
Finally, I would like to say sorry for all my wrongdoings. If i have ever broken your heart, made you bleed, filled you with rage, induce those tears and whatever else that deserves an apology. I am truly sorry.
A special note to Mummy, Daddy, Mel, Oma and Opa. Shaheera minta ampun semua salah silap yang pernah Shaheera buat this whole year. I miss all of you very very much. I love you!
ps: I managed to fulfill my Ramadhan resolutions. Well albiet with some kinks here and there. Like falling asleep for 3-4 hours in the afternoon. And being too tired to terawikh (but that was only 2 days!) :D
Damn you chemistry majors! With your weird sense of humour and inside jokes no other faculty understands!!! Curseeesssss!!!! Thank gudness some of u are actually cute. Pah!
Yeaaayy! Raya is in two days! Or is that one? Theres only one day of fasting left. Then Im gonna have laksa johooorrr! Wheee!! And family time. Which I suppose means I should have a tiny bit of alone time right before we dance.
I had one of those recurring thoughts which always hits me hard everytime it flings itself into my face. I'm actually LIVING in SYDNEY. Owhmahgawd! People back home come here for holidays and Im here 9 mnths in a year! I breathe in its pollution, I smell the salty breeze from the harbours, I laugh at the mat salleh's jokes. And I love this place. Every minute of it.
In some other dimension, I have a twin brother. We have 'gifts' but we cease to function when we're apart. Like now. Thats why I seem normal. But I'm not. No, we are not rulers of our world nor are we the saviors of our kind. We are but small anomalies amongst our race, pretending to be something we are not. And no, we do not have costumes. He thinks it looks tacky.
Goddamit. I'm screwing with my own head. Gah. Must've been the Nutella.
When you ipod and looking out the window ceases to work
On the bus today, I attempted to give my seat to 2 different people...and they REFUSED. Eh? What? This is an old man and someone using a tongkat okay. Not some 40 year old woman insulted by my misjudgement of her age. I found that pretty darn weird. To think you try to do something nice and people reject it. Ngeh. Finally the third person accepted my offer and guess what? She was a 40-45 year old woman in tights and sneakers. *rolls eyes*
I also had to tolerate the sight of a couple kissing in the bus today. They weren't making out or anything. To normal people, or perhaps to those who watch too many movies, its quite sweet. I guess to some extent it is but I just feel uncomfortable when I watch people smooch in public. I feel like I'm invading their privacy or Im committing voyeurism. Of course if they have the guts to do it in public then I shouldn't feel that way. But I just do. And its way worse when you can HEAR them kissing. Goddamit, all that slurping, bleargh. Don't get me wrong, Im not against kissing and being lovey dovey. I just dont want to SEE it or HEAR it. Please. Spare me your loved up sessions.
One last thing I saw on the bus. Three siblings were sitting next to each other. I assumed they were related because they had the same eyes and nose and they kept trying to irritate each other. The 2 elder ones were girls, one being the eldest, was the most authoritive and the second was more quiet and feminine. The youngest was a boy who of course did most of the irritating. Hehe. Reminds me of a certain someone back home, down to his white board shorts and cheeky grin. The moment I saw them I felt that familiar wave of homesickness wash over me. I got over it as soon as I noticed the sneakers on the 40 year old woman.
This is what happens when you ride the bus alone without a book. Every small thing is magnified and dramatised. Or maybe its just me. Haha.
Flowers are SO overrated. If you wanna impress me (or any girl with a huge appetite for that matter), this is THE way to go:
Yup. A cupcake bouquet. Beats having to change the water everyday. Hee.
However, I doubt you can find it here, unless Cupcakes on Pitt or My Little Cupcake decide to do extra special orders. :D. No, no..this beautiful adornment can only be bought from a bakery in Newfoundland, Canada called Cupcake Laine.
Btw, Im impressed at the fact that Malaysia has also managed to produce two cupcakeries, Cuppacakes and Tinkerbell Cupcakes which are now internationally acclaimed. Makes you proud don't it? I am SO going to infiltrate them on my birthweek. Ngeh ngeh. Do check em out whenever you guys are back. To those who ARE in Msia, if u havent tried em, please DO!
Okay before I die of a virtual sugar rush, I'll leave you guys with a pic of lucious cupcakes from Hawa with help frm the other GQs minus me. Made full of love for the birthday boy:
Its the comment you get from your mother saying you'll never dissapoint her.
Its having a candle lit picnic with the people you love.
Its finishing that book in your favourite cafe.
Its staring at the stars by the beach with your bestie.
Its acting like you're at home with your artificial family.
Its falling asleep to the sweet sound of your favourite band.
Its that smile you've been waiting for for one whole week.
Its seeing the look of surprise on the birthday girl/boy's face.
Its the compliments you get for something you didn't have confidence in.
ps: My good fren Reen just designed a smackass tee shirt. If you wanna order one just let me know and Ill try to get one for you. It costs around $20 I think. For those in Sydney, and that I actually know la, Ill personally deliver it to you. :D Check it out here.
Sunshine and heat waves mark the return of cotton dresses! (Oooh..) Shorts and Mini Skirts! (Aaaah..) Flip Flops! (Yeaayy..) Beach Towels! (Cool..) PDAs! (WTF..)
Goddamit. The uni lawns are crawling with them love birds. Owh well.
I still have craploads of assignments due. Sometimes I wonder what is to become of me. No, I dont want you to kick me in the ass. No, I dont want you to nag my ears off. No, I dont want you to chain me to my desk till I finish every little bit of work left.
I just want you to take me by the hand. Clear a spot at my table. Seat me down with a cup of ice lemon tea. Kiss my forehead. And tell me I'm going to make you proud.
I really have to stop being so idealistic and delusional.
Please Stop. Stop lazying around. Stop thinking. Stop daydreaming. Stop eating. Stop being sad. Stop thinking. Stop wishing you were home. Stop listening to Ne-Yo's Make It Work. Stop gritting your teeth. Stop thinking. Stop sleeping in. Stop imagining. Stop wasting time. Stop facebooking. Stop being irritating. Stop thinking. Please Stop.
Please Start. Start being serious. Start doing. Start studying. Start controlling your emotions. Start being responsible. Start doing. Start being disciplined. Start having a schedule. Start being serious. Start following said schedule. Start doing. Start fixing your problems. Start acting out what you preach. Start being happy and fulfilled. Start doing. Please Start.
You know how there's always this HUGE pile of crap you have to tackle and you don't know where to start? Yes, I know spring break is over. Stop patronising.
A dash of Disney, a sprinkle of pop punk, lashings of sweet treats, a pinch of superheroes, bundles of laughter and a tinge of crankyness.
All wrapped up in a pretty package that resembles the Cookie Monster.
Also self proclaimed Princess of Le Cupcake Kingdom
People I love. Music. Sweet treats. Singing animals. Movies. Princes. Books. Fables. Hindustan Heroes.
Sinks my Ship
Rude people working in hospitality and sales. Long queues. Idiots CUTTING long queues. People who Patronise.
Wishlist
To finally figure out what I'm meant to do. To travel the world. To eat anything without gaining ungodly amounts of weight. To get my happily ever after. :)
Yup. A cupcake bouquet. Beats having to change the water everyday. Hee.
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