Hearts of Stone and Minds of Mush
Gee. It hasn't even been a month since I landed in Sydney and already there's trouble in paradise (hmm. Who says uni is paradise?). It hasn't really been the best of weekends. Surprisingly I'm so numb I think there's something seriously wrong with me. I usually bawl but right now I don't feel anything. I mean I'm angry, I'm worried, I'm sad but I can't actually act out these emotions. Weird. I suppose it's good because I don't get too carried away this way. But then again, I'm afraid I'll burst pretty soon. Ah well. We'll see la. When mid term exams start I'm sure it'll be worse. Lots worse. Hee.Emo song of the moment: When it falls apart, The Veronicas.Owh I know! Maybe because I've got SO many other things to be thankful for. Auli getting in the top 100 scorers, my gediks and other lovelies like Jams, Zek, Erin n Dirah for standing by me. Not to mention those far away yet keeping tender grips on my heart: Liyana, Fatin, Intan, Shahir, Chomet n Asma. My new found friends and old ones who can light up my day just by saying 'Hi! I love ur hair!'.Mummy and daddy (happy birthday~heeeee). And my adik yang I teramat sangat rindu!Fooh. That feels SO much better. Though there still is the issue of cheering up other people with worse breakdowns. I wish I could book a flight to UK right now. And whip my besterest buddy home and force feed her Mars Pods, Ms Read desserts and lotsa hugs and kisses till she gets waaaayyyy better. Unfortunately, all I can wish her now is luck. I hate this. She needs me and I can't be there. Bollocks.