Dusk and summer
Im loving that Dashboard song, Stolen. It reminds me of sunsets by the beach. How the light tints everything around you either orange or pink. The waves sweeping past your toes. *sigh* I miss Bali.Just watched One tree hill. Lucas says its okay to let yourself be happy. 'Happiness comes in many forms, in the company of good friends, in the feeling you get when you make someone else's dream come true, or in the promise of hope renewed'. I want to feel happy again. I want to enjoy the company of my friends (I'd have to actually MEET them first :P). I want my hope renewed. Much like how Chase did it for Brooke (I'm so digging the virginal role Stephen is playing). Id like that. The butterflies again. The dates that I'd look forward to. And the nice guy who will never cheat on me and who has 'stolen my heart'. Hee.
I keep losing myself lately. I get off track. I question my thoughts. I run away. I think. I feel better and I come back. Then people I know cloud my judgments anyway. So the whole process repeats. There are certain things that make me sure of who or what I am essentially. My family for sure. But theres also my former English lecturer, mdm Gouri. I don't know how she does it but she makes me feel so sure about myself. She instills the thought that I AM worthy of better grades and better choices. Its amazing you see. Even simple sentences can do wonders for my self esteem and I seem to be able to use it for other aspects besides I.S. Hehe.
Thank God this post isn't one for ranting, coz I was seriously thinking about it considering the circumstances. But I'm glad it turned out happier than expected. Hee.