So Long Sweet Summer
Hmm. I'm off to Sydney 2mrw. :S.
So marks the end of my Summer Holidays.I'm filled to the brim with such immense amount of affection for my loved ones. I'm glad I got to see them this holidays. From my awesome family members (even d ones in Jakarta) to my INTEC lecturers. Huhu. I love, LOVE them SO much! Even the ones who feel they don't deserve it, or those that other people think don't deserve it either. Thanks for making this summer a great one. Thanks for spending time with me, for killing my boredom and for showing me how I really am and how much faith you have in me.
One thing I've learnt is that people always change. It may take a whole year, a couple of months and even just a few weeks. You can't stop them, try as you might. You might not like the new improved version. But you deal with it eventually because they still are, under all that jazz, essentially the same person you first knew. I've noticed that everyone I know has changed. I'm guessing I have too, but that's for other people to judge I suppose. My mom would adamantly state that I haven't changed one bit. Yea yea, considering I still crawl into her bed before she dozes off at night. :P.
"So long sweet summer. I stumbled upon you and basked in your rays. So long sweet summer. I fell into you now you're gracefully falling away." Dashboard Confessional.
Ps: I've been downloading songs like mad! I blame it on Chomet. :D
Daphne Loves Derby and Cute Is What We Aim For rawks!!!!
Hilites
Just came back from the hairdresser. I feel like a million bucks. Haha. Seriously! I like my new hair colour n just now they blew dry my hair in curls. I loike! I was literally beaming from ear to ear as I waltzed out of the salon. I mean, you don't always have two cute and talented guys running their hands through your hair. *Cue hysterical laughter*
And very rarely do they ask you to come back and have a drink with them. Huhuhu...
I like how the sun sometimes filters through the clouds. then u can see the rays much clearer. (I'm trying to decipher the purpose of this tasteless observation). 10 more days till Sydney. :(. I want to go back n get into the whole routine of studying again, all the independence n freedom I cld want, n great friends. But I definately don't wanna leave home. The comfort of my own bed, the hot food on the table, the company of my wonderful family, driving ard in my lil kelisa n cheap movies. *sob sob*. But I'll have to face it eventually n I suppose I'm much more prepared compared to last year. Haha. No emotional baggage I suppose. Just that odd feeling of wanting to run away again. Hmm.U guys SO have to check out these dudes: Faviq n RidwanThey play really nice acoustic songs.And also check out: HujanEspecially their songs Hiba and Pagi yang Gelap. Very nice! Have a great day ppl!
strawberry jem
The Dork Just resurfaced:
Dusk and summer
Im loving that Dashboard song, Stolen. It reminds me of sunsets by the beach. How the light tints everything around you either orange or pink. The waves sweeping past your toes. *sigh* I miss Bali.Just watched One tree hill. Lucas says its okay to let yourself be happy. 'Happiness comes in many forms, in the company of good friends, in the feeling you get when you make someone else's dream come true, or in the promise of hope renewed'. I want to feel happy again. I want to enjoy the company of my friends (I'd have to actually MEET them first :P). I want my hope renewed. Much like how Chase did it for Brooke (I'm so digging the virginal role Stephen is playing). Id like that. The butterflies again. The dates that I'd look forward to. And the nice guy who will never cheat on me and who has 'stolen my heart'. Hee.
I keep losing myself lately. I get off track. I question my thoughts. I run away. I think. I feel better and I come back. Then people I know cloud my judgments anyway. So the whole process repeats. There are certain things that make me sure of who or what I am essentially. My family for sure. But theres also my former English lecturer, mdm Gouri. I don't know how she does it but she makes me feel so sure about myself. She instills the thought that I AM worthy of better grades and better choices. Its amazing you see. Even simple sentences can do wonders for my self esteem and I seem to be able to use it for other aspects besides I.S. Hehe.
Thank God this post isn't one for ranting, coz I was seriously thinking about it considering the circumstances. But I'm glad it turned out happier than expected. Hee.
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