'Can I drive my heel thru your skull?'
I'm in a dilemma. I dunno whether I shld really write down whats bothering me. Im paranoid. No prizes on guessing why. Something abt hurting ppls feelings. Ah. what the heck. Its MY blog.I'm Not a child. For the life of me, I don't know What in the world I did that made me deserve being treated like one. Nak manja skit tak boleh. Nak perlahankan suara sambil senyum tak boleh. Nak gelak kuat2 tak boleh. Nak tanya soalan 'how-tos' tak boleh. What am i supposed to do huh?? PRETEND I know shit and bullshit on how mature I am? Right. Have such stoic stature and emotionless reactions coz thats what 'grownups' do? Nak rationalise and argue orang ketawakan. Nak fight for my rights people snort and say, 'just listen to me'. Kepala Hotak.I AM NOT INCOMPETENT.
I may seem weak and slow but I am fully capable of doing things on my own and deciding for myself what I want and what I think is good for me. Just give me some time and space.
I'm not asking ppl to abandon me in some desert without resources and forcing me to find my way home just to PROVE to you that I am capable. All I need you to do is just STEP BACK.There. The full version (complete with expletives) are somewhere in my brain. I took the liberty of editing some hurtful contents. Haha. Yes mom. It DOES make me feel better. Well at least till someone gets hurt and confronts me. Well, if they were so perfect, they wldnt have caused MY heartbreak and frustration in the first place and thus this spew of emotions wld not have come abt. :)