It feels good to run away. The worse part though, is having to come right back and face everything again.
Had a spectacular holiday in Bali. No communication wit Malaysia or Sydney for a week. Woo Hoo! Cept on my bday tho. Thanks u guys for wishing me. Such sweethearts. :)
Hilights of Bali: watchin d magnificent sunset at Jimbaran Beach while dining on fantabulous ikan bakar. Visiting the temple n museum at Denpasar (Im sucha geek, I knw :B). Gettin that long awaited spa n massage. Havin the hotel band serenade Broery Marantika's Angin Malam to me (coz i requested it. :P).
Now i feel sorta crappy-ish (now truth be told, when am i not? hehehehe) coz my elizah is leaving in 2 days. Im gona miss her like HELL.
And i cant believe that peer pressure is very much alive in this age of young adulthood, when we're supposed to be delving into our own opinions and preferences rather than trying to live up to our social circles (no matter how diverse they are) and competing witout coming up short next to our frens. I have this fear that just bcoz u dun try things that u oredi knw r wrong, it means dat ur juz naive and inexperienced. Rite. So shoving alcohol and pills down my throat before i go home wit sum complete stranger to get sum lovin pretty much sums up to maturity. Twisted shit this one. I mean im not patronising. I aint pure n innocent either. And im not gona stick my nose into anyones biz.
Anyway, happy new yr everyone! May u have a gud one! ps: Dun bother asking me to elaborate further. Its only up for discussion to certain ppl. N dun question this decision for discretion either. Nite. :)
I watched happy feet. NIIIICCEEEE!!!! U guys haf GOTTA watch it. the baby penguins r absolutely adorable. And the amigos will haf u in stitches!! 5 Stars from me. :D
Cant wait to hang wit my girlfrens. Miss them loadsssssss....heee
Since everyones been complainin abt my blog being depressing and me being emo I'll write a happy post.
I'm goin back in 3 days!!! Yaaaaaayyyyyyyy!!!
Cant wait for all the food Ive missed. I dont care if ppl say I look like a whale, Im gona eat all the things Ive missed. Haha. Subway Sandwiches. Williams Pasta. Mee Bakso murah. Omas soto. Auntie Tildas Tiramisu....hihihihihihi......tk sabanyeeeee...:D
Cant wait to hug my adik. I dont care if he irritates me to my wits end. Thats what he's here for. :P. Juz as long as I knw he still loves me n hes around for me to bug, Its enough for me. And of course to give my parents a huge bear hug! And my oma and opa!!!! Daddy, sunday kita makan di Kayu ya..n can we haf sate padang wit d whole fam on sunday skali?? yg di kmpg baru itu masih bukak ngga??
Cant wait to see all my frens. Liz. Alin. Fatin (celebrate bday!!!!!!). Firame. Badak Sumbu. Syaz. Liz. Alin. Fatin. Firame. Liz. Liz. Hehehehehe...n project jalan2 cari makaaaannnnn wit d gedddiiiikkksssss!!!! Firame, Alexis is waitiiiinnn!!! (I wana c my munchkin but shes not comin home. :()
Cant wait to step into OU. GSC cinemas. CATS WHISKERS!! The clothes better b good......Cant wait to head off to Bali. And Jakarta! oooooohhh..shoppin in Bandung! Jalan2 sama auntie mela n ela. Jumpa Icha, Rizki, Riyan. N auntie Ledy's kid(s?). N tessa!! :P
Insyallah my holidays will b a blast. Please, please, please let it be. I cant stand being morose anymore. No more feeling stressed....holidays are for fun...so i hope all my plans work out. wish me luck!
So hope u guys r enjoyin urselves. Pray for my safety okay? Kiss kiss, hug hug!
I'm in a dilemma. I dunno whether I shld really write down whats bothering me. Im paranoid. No prizes on guessing why. Something abt hurting ppls feelings. Ah. what the heck. Its MY blog.
I'm Not a child. For the life of me, I don't know What in the world I did that made me deserve being treated like one. Nak manja skit tak boleh. Nak perlahankan suara sambil senyum tak boleh. Nak gelak kuat2 tak boleh. Nak tanya soalan 'how-tos' tak boleh. What am i supposed to do huh?? PRETEND I know shit and bullshit on how mature I am? Right. Have such stoic stature and emotionless reactions coz thats what 'grownups' do? Nak rationalise and argue orang ketawakan. Nak fight for my rights people snort and say, 'just listen to me'. Kepala Hotak.
I AM NOT INCOMPETENT. I may seem weak and slow but I am fully capable of doing things on my own and deciding for myself what I want and what I think is good for me. Just give me some time and space.
I'm not asking ppl to abandon me in some desert without resources and forcing me to find my way home just to PROVE to you that I am capable. All I need you to do is just STEP BACK.
There. The full version (complete with expletives) are somewhere in my brain. I took the liberty of editing some hurtful contents. Haha. Yes mom. It DOES make me feel better. Well at least till someone gets hurt and confronts me. Well, if they were so perfect, they wldnt have caused MY heartbreak and frustration in the first place and thus this spew of emotions wld not have come abt. :)
Hahaha..it's just me. That's how I am. I can be flying high one minute, laughing my head off. And I can be looking out the window all sullen the next. Not to say that Im not a generally happy person. If you see me with my huge family and my friends, U'll know that I am. :D
My mom found her way to my blog. She had a good laugh. I'm glad she understands that when I write I just let everything out. And she knows my emoness will be short lived. She doesnt get too worked up about it. She finds in quite funny actually. I dont really know whether to be relieved or insulted. hmmm..
My dad on the other hand, found the key word 'hurt' and got worried. So cute. He thinks Im in some sort of dilemma. And he asked my mom to talk to me. Daddy, if you're reading this, which I know u probably are, relax okay? Im doin alrite. Dont worry too much, I'll be home soon. :D
Okie dokie. I have to start planning wat to buy b4 i go hme. Perghhhh.....
A dash of Disney, a sprinkle of pop punk, lashings of sweet treats, a pinch of superheroes, bundles of laughter and a tinge of crankyness.
All wrapped up in a pretty package that resembles the Cookie Monster.
Also self proclaimed Princess of Le Cupcake Kingdom
People I love. Music. Sweet treats. Singing animals. Movies. Princes. Books. Fables. Hindustan Heroes.
Sinks my Ship
Rude people working in hospitality and sales. Long queues. Idiots CUTTING long queues. People who Patronise.
Wishlist
To finally figure out what I'm meant to do. To travel the world. To eat anything without gaining ungodly amounts of weight. To get my happily ever after. :)
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